theres gotta be something more.
This life, this indulgence of all that is minor ... why do i hold onto things with little meaning. I mean i give all of myself to things that dont deserve my attention in any shape or form. Why do i force myself to linger in emotions that make me unhappy. I confess there are feelings brought on by meaningless icons that capture the moment and devour your instance so that your basically shut off from all the practical thoughts you may have. But those few moments, are they worth it? Nothing seems to stay around long enough to make a difference. Not love, life, happiness, there is not one thing i can remember that has stayed long enough in my life that its made such an emotion last longer than short time. Whats the point? when does this endless cycle of bullshit end? When you need someone, they arent there, when you need something, you can have it, when you reach out, theres noone there to grasp your hand. So tell me... why do i allow the capturing of my heart, emotions, and just myself, to any person or thing when it wont be around long enough to make any sort of difference?
im scared. of my life, of myself, and of everything i have no control over, which seems to be more than what i can handle. i dont know what i want, i dont know how to get there. i havent the slightest clue of anything anymore now that the things i thought highest of have let me down.
im scared. of my life, of myself, and of everything i have no control over, which seems to be more than what i can handle. i dont know what i want, i dont know how to get there. i havent the slightest clue of anything anymore now that the things i thought highest of have let me down.