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[zypher]

Hey all, just as fair warning, this is going to be a long entry on my part, and it contains some life changing info about me, kinda sorta, not really. so feel free to read or here are the highlights: things are going to change, no more LQ unless I have a specific purpose in going, and I am really happy.

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[bloodmusician]

I guess I know the feeling of it all. Change, reverting back to an old self. I'm only 16 so I guess my words probably sound pretty empty, but over the last year or two, I've been so many different people in so many different ways. The whole time though, I've stayed in the same basic situation, and I've felt like nothing moved. Looking back though, I lost touch with myself and who I wanted myself to be. I forgot what I liked or enjoyed and became conventional and simple. I used to devote my time to writing and practicing my musical things, but I let my talent slip away through neglect. There was a time where I knew what I wanted to do but could do it well. I know that right now I still don't know exactly what's going on in my head or how to fix myself, but I'm trying to return to Laura; I'm going to be someone who I can be proud of, who has conviction about things and knows what she's doing. I've always had a certain depression and difficulty being social, but I've felt safe in that and in some strange way enjoyed it. Maybe that's because it's me.

I guess what I'm trying to say is this. Despite the fact that I'm in completely different circumstances than you, I believe I know the feeling you're describing. It makes sense, and in the end I suppose it can be made pretty positive.