Various rants
1) It's going to rain. THe radio says slight chance, but considering my window is securely rolled all the way down and sees no reason (including my teary begged proposals to please roll up) to return to the securely rolled up position, it is going to rain. And it will not wait until 4:30 when I can park it under covered parking and then live like a hermit. No it will rain today, soaking the seat.
And why is it that my car always. ALWAYS messes up after I clean it out? Or wash it? Or do something good for it? Case in point last year I get the oil changed and guy says, this is your raditor fluid, it's supposed to be blue (or whatever color it's supposed to be) mine looked like gross tea. So, I let someone flush the radiator. Two hours into a nine hour road trip two days later, my car begins to overheat. Flushing the raditor dislodged a rust spot that had been doing a marvelous job plugging a leak. I had to get a new raditor fluid pan, whatever. But more importantly I was stranded in this strange little town.
And the last time the window thing occured I took it to a mechanic, handed over my keys and said, fix it. Just fix it. He walked out. Walked back in, looked at me in a concerned manner and said, "It rolled up."
And further. My car has a lot of miles on it. It's a 98. It's domestic. It's probably barely worth 1000. So why is it that this window thingie could set me back 300? I mean that's almost half the value of my car. Can someone explain to me why it is that parts of my car demand so much money, when the actual car is not worth it?
2) The day I cut my foot open I wasn't having a good day. By the end of said day I just wanted to go home and die, but instead knew I would have to go stand on said hurt foot at borders where the new gm was starting and I don't know if they gave me all the days off I need. Anyway. I answered the phone, transfered the call, the troll comes out and says, "bla bla on the phone thought you sounded sick or tired, you need to pep it up."
Now it's a thing. "are you gonna be energetic and peppy on the phone." So, I had to say, "I've never gotten any negative feedback other than that one time. In fact I've had people tell me personally that they enjoyed how peppy I was on the phone." He didn't site any other examples of a "non peppy" attitude. But I just don't have the energy to deal with this.
3) I'm being evaluated today. I had to fill out a self eval. This is the first time in my life that I know for a fact that I did not do my best. I just did what I needed to get by. It's a strange feeling. And the strangest thing is that if this job demanded my best I know I'd have to apologize and say that I couldn't give it here. I don't see a future here. Don't want a future here. I want to be a freelance writer. I just need something in the mean time so I don't starve.
sigh
(8 days, this time next week I'm going to be trying to find my suitcase and washing underwear!)
And why is it that my car always. ALWAYS messes up after I clean it out? Or wash it? Or do something good for it? Case in point last year I get the oil changed and guy says, this is your raditor fluid, it's supposed to be blue (or whatever color it's supposed to be) mine looked like gross tea. So, I let someone flush the radiator. Two hours into a nine hour road trip two days later, my car begins to overheat. Flushing the raditor dislodged a rust spot that had been doing a marvelous job plugging a leak. I had to get a new raditor fluid pan, whatever. But more importantly I was stranded in this strange little town.
And the last time the window thing occured I took it to a mechanic, handed over my keys and said, fix it. Just fix it. He walked out. Walked back in, looked at me in a concerned manner and said, "It rolled up."
And further. My car has a lot of miles on it. It's a 98. It's domestic. It's probably barely worth 1000. So why is it that this window thingie could set me back 300? I mean that's almost half the value of my car. Can someone explain to me why it is that parts of my car demand so much money, when the actual car is not worth it?
2) The day I cut my foot open I wasn't having a good day. By the end of said day I just wanted to go home and die, but instead knew I would have to go stand on said hurt foot at borders where the new gm was starting and I don't know if they gave me all the days off I need. Anyway. I answered the phone, transfered the call, the troll comes out and says, "bla bla on the phone thought you sounded sick or tired, you need to pep it up."
Now it's a thing. "are you gonna be energetic and peppy on the phone." So, I had to say, "I've never gotten any negative feedback other than that one time. In fact I've had people tell me personally that they enjoyed how peppy I was on the phone." He didn't site any other examples of a "non peppy" attitude. But I just don't have the energy to deal with this.
3) I'm being evaluated today. I had to fill out a self eval. This is the first time in my life that I know for a fact that I did not do my best. I just did what I needed to get by. It's a strange feeling. And the strangest thing is that if this job demanded my best I know I'd have to apologize and say that I couldn't give it here. I don't see a future here. Don't want a future here. I want to be a freelance writer. I just need something in the mean time so I don't starve.
sigh
(8 days, this time next week I'm going to be trying to find my suitcase and washing underwear!)