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ZymoticGirl: do you believe in karma?
AsakoGoshiu: mostly
ZymoticGirl: ...i feel guilty
AsakoGoshiu: why
ZymoticGirl: today i wrote a letter to jonny telling him i forgive him and i hope he lives a long and happy life and my ps was "i didnt tell the landlord i was moving out because he said he would have to evict you, so i told him that i was away on buisness alot with my new job and that's why he would have a hard time getting ahold of me... I didnt want you to be homeless. I hope everything works out for you."
ZymoticGirl: and then fred came over this afternoon and said that jonny and meg are getting evicted because the landlord showed up and the place reeks of beer and pot and the neighbors called the police because they think that they're dealing out of the appartment and when the landlord showed he immedeatly told them they're being evicted and called sunny and fred to find out the truth about me
ZymoticGirl: so they're in all this trouble, and the landlord likes me so i'm not in trouble at all, cause he knows me and i dont know.
ZymoticGirl: i feel guilty
ZymoticGirl: like my forgiving him even if i didnt tell him made bad things happen
ZymoticGirl: i dont want bad things to happen to him
ZymoticGirl: i just want to stop hurting
ZymoticGirl: and for him to realise how good i was to him and what he's missing
ZymoticGirl: the question is this: why do i still love him enough to care?
AsakoGoshiu: mostly
ZymoticGirl: ...i feel guilty
AsakoGoshiu: why
ZymoticGirl: today i wrote a letter to jonny telling him i forgive him and i hope he lives a long and happy life and my ps was "i didnt tell the landlord i was moving out because he said he would have to evict you, so i told him that i was away on buisness alot with my new job and that's why he would have a hard time getting ahold of me... I didnt want you to be homeless. I hope everything works out for you."
ZymoticGirl: and then fred came over this afternoon and said that jonny and meg are getting evicted because the landlord showed up and the place reeks of beer and pot and the neighbors called the police because they think that they're dealing out of the appartment and when the landlord showed he immedeatly told them they're being evicted and called sunny and fred to find out the truth about me
ZymoticGirl: so they're in all this trouble, and the landlord likes me so i'm not in trouble at all, cause he knows me and i dont know.
ZymoticGirl: i feel guilty
ZymoticGirl: like my forgiving him even if i didnt tell him made bad things happen
ZymoticGirl: i dont want bad things to happen to him
ZymoticGirl: i just want to stop hurting
ZymoticGirl: and for him to realise how good i was to him and what he's missing
ZymoticGirl: the question is this: why do i still love him enough to care?