The Truth
The truth is that I've felt so much duality lately. Feeling everything and nothing at the same time, yet I can't recall a time when I felt anything more than void. Like I'm only half a person. Like I'll never be whole. Like some part of myself was lost in the haze that was this year.
From January on, there's been nothing but sour notes and sacrifices. Not to say that the year has been bad, just a lot of change take in. With life moving so quickly, and my mind following suite, its hard to remember what life used to be like and how exactly things came to be as they are right now.
There are a lot of things I don't know. Where am I going? What am I doing? Who do I have? I think about this uncertainty in my sleep, but I can only hear the grinding of my teeth. Answers will come in due time, I suppose, but I'm lost in existence right now.
At the end of the day, I just feel like running over my head, though those feelings of nihilism and insignificance will never get the best of me, I'll remain an optimist 'til the day that it doesn't serve me well to think positive thoughts and always hope, no matter how bad I want to give up on hope, it won't give up on me.
From January on, there's been nothing but sour notes and sacrifices. Not to say that the year has been bad, just a lot of change take in. With life moving so quickly, and my mind following suite, its hard to remember what life used to be like and how exactly things came to be as they are right now.
There are a lot of things I don't know. Where am I going? What am I doing? Who do I have? I think about this uncertainty in my sleep, but I can only hear the grinding of my teeth. Answers will come in due time, I suppose, but I'm lost in existence right now.
At the end of the day, I just feel like running over my head, though those feelings of nihilism and insignificance will never get the best of me, I'll remain an optimist 'til the day that it doesn't serve me well to think positive thoughts and always hope, no matter how bad I want to give up on hope, it won't give up on me.