I don't want to go to work tomorrow
As soon as I go to work tomorrow there is going to be a meeting. It's going to be the accounting department trying to shift the blame on me for not meeting our budget. Althought I don't do the direct ordering, I fucked up because I became a month behind in my work. It wasn't because I was not working, or suck at my job. It was a combination of forced days off from holidays, hours being cut, and people asking me to help them. So, there was only about 15 working days last month and that made me really behind. No one seemed to notice and everyone just ignored me asking for help. This all came to head on Monday when accruals happened. Accruals are when we haven't actually paid for something and have to budget the next month expecting to pay for that.
When the accountant ask for what I had for her to accrual I had stacks of paperwork for her. She immediately told her supervisor, who then got her director, who then got my director. This called for an emergency meeting where they asked me why I had so much for them to accrue. I was honest and told them I got behind and the reasons why. This made it apparent that I have wayyyy to big of workload (No shit, I don't even take breaks and work off the clock). So, they took some of my work away and forced all my coworkers to help me catch up. So for the last week they have been helping me.
Today, as I'm almost caught up, the accountant asks for my accordion full of invoices that are waiting for a purchase order to be put on them. She opens it and sees all the accruals she missed and tells everyone again. So, now we are overbudget and everyone is mad at me. It's not my fault, because the accountant KNOWS that every month I'll have invoices in there. It hasn't changed and she is trying to make it look like I neglected to give it to her. I'm officially stressed because of my coworkers, my workload, and how I feel like I'm always going to get fired. Which is horrible since I don't slack off. I say I do, but I really don't, especially compared to my coworkers.
On top that, I have horrible money worries because I just got double charged for laptops and they won't give me money back until I receive the second and return it. That's my rent and utilities money.
My back is still going numb. I go to the doctor tomorrow and hopefully he'll tell me it's something more than soft tissue damage. My back is going numb, that's not normal. It's either horrible pain or numb. I'm tired of physical therapy it's not doing anything and it wastes my time.
I'm just going to eat food and and sit in the dark all weekend.
When the accountant ask for what I had for her to accrual I had stacks of paperwork for her. She immediately told her supervisor, who then got her director, who then got my director. This called for an emergency meeting where they asked me why I had so much for them to accrue. I was honest and told them I got behind and the reasons why. This made it apparent that I have wayyyy to big of workload (No shit, I don't even take breaks and work off the clock). So, they took some of my work away and forced all my coworkers to help me catch up. So for the last week they have been helping me.
Today, as I'm almost caught up, the accountant asks for my accordion full of invoices that are waiting for a purchase order to be put on them. She opens it and sees all the accruals she missed and tells everyone again. So, now we are overbudget and everyone is mad at me. It's not my fault, because the accountant KNOWS that every month I'll have invoices in there. It hasn't changed and she is trying to make it look like I neglected to give it to her. I'm officially stressed because of my coworkers, my workload, and how I feel like I'm always going to get fired. Which is horrible since I don't slack off. I say I do, but I really don't, especially compared to my coworkers.
On top that, I have horrible money worries because I just got double charged for laptops and they won't give me money back until I receive the second and return it. That's my rent and utilities money.
My back is still going numb. I go to the doctor tomorrow and hopefully he'll tell me it's something more than soft tissue damage. My back is going numb, that's not normal. It's either horrible pain or numb. I'm tired of physical therapy it's not doing anything and it wastes my time.
I'm just going to eat food and and sit in the dark all weekend.