I must really be special
Somtimes i wonder how much people really do care. I guess i have a habit fo not reading into things enough. I underestimate my own value. I know i need to get rid of my paranoia. cheryl and I were talking today and I am surprised she still want to be by my side considering the things that keep getting shoved at us lately. She tells me i worry to much and i need to calm down. Shes right. I'm jsut used to people walking away. But i know i need to try and shape up. It's hard. I have been this way for a while. Its hard for me to believe anyone wants to be arond me for any reason at al. I kow i shldnt get soo down when things get tough, bu it jsut seems as though im cursed wiht bad luck. I know i shouldnt underestimate how well she understand and how much she cares, its just hard to not feel worthless when u get told that a lot. *sigh* Urgh, im such a wreck. Im just getting worried things will change considering things that have been going on In know she tells me it will be ok and i try to tell myself that, its jsut going to take time i guess. this whole being loved unconditionally thing is rather new to me. Or both of us for that matter. I guess i jsut need to take a deep breath and instill some more faith in her love. *yawn* well im out. Catch you guys later.