wish i werent sane
It's wierd because, well, I have nothing to say. Or do, for that matter.
My grandparents have been here for the last couple weeks and I dont know...can we leave it at they are very well-meaning people?
And I'm not the nicest person at times, to them, I mean, and that saddens me.
I do not like being mean.
And I'm kind of more sad because I think Jessi is drifting away.
Drifting away in the sense, oh god, I dont know.
I just know there's a huge hole in my stomach that I cant cure with food.
And my friend thinks I am the most sane out of the people he knows.
And in some wierd way, that saddens me. Because its true.
Maybe that's why I need more love than a lot of people-like, I keep anger away, so that equals empty space that I need love to fill.
And I miss people. Like, this sounds immature, but its not like anyone will be reading this, Maura didnt invite me to her party- I used to be the person she would confide in.
I'm like, gone from those people's lives now.
And only one of my eyes is crying.
And its unbalanced and annoying.
Hah.
I just want Jessi to be someone I dont have to have fade away.
Because, goddammit, shes my best friend.
You know?
I just want her to stay the best.
My grandparents have been here for the last couple weeks and I dont know...can we leave it at they are very well-meaning people?
And I'm not the nicest person at times, to them, I mean, and that saddens me.
I do not like being mean.
And I'm kind of more sad because I think Jessi is drifting away.
Drifting away in the sense, oh god, I dont know.
I just know there's a huge hole in my stomach that I cant cure with food.
And my friend thinks I am the most sane out of the people he knows.
And in some wierd way, that saddens me. Because its true.
Maybe that's why I need more love than a lot of people-like, I keep anger away, so that equals empty space that I need love to fill.
And I miss people. Like, this sounds immature, but its not like anyone will be reading this, Maura didnt invite me to her party- I used to be the person she would confide in.
I'm like, gone from those people's lives now.
And only one of my eyes is crying.
And its unbalanced and annoying.
Hah.
I just want Jessi to be someone I dont have to have fade away.
Because, goddammit, shes my best friend.
You know?
I just want her to stay the best.