cant you see I'm smiling.

[zwozwi]

so.
blah.
alma called me.
i didnt pick up the phone but i saved her message.
she told me
um. i love you.
and she said
love, alma. um. yea.
and i died.
and she called me on my birthday and shes sending me a present
(in the next year or so)
and suddenly remember when i kissed her and she loved me and then i cried?
and then we sat above the ground and she stared through the leaves and touched my hand and she spoke.
and i listened.
and they remember how we hid.
and tehy remember how we lied to even the shadows.
and no one suspedted a thing.
and please dont remember when she yelled at me and i ran away and im not the same?
and then we left and then i broke and then the blood pooled around me and started to clot.
and my hair dripped down in front of my face and the grease was past unhealthy.
and we forgot to talk and she left- early.
and i asked her- can i kiss you
but she said it would be strange.

and please dont remember how i wasnt the last to say goodbye.

and cant you see im still in love?

and cant you see im smiling?

alma?