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Life as people know it. Every once in a while I find myself to feel like I have to express my pain through fighting or through tears. I dont want to do that ever. Life is to short to fight as well as to cry. A person should only cry when something magical happens. When the guy or lady of your dreams swoops you off your feet and you feel that feeling that feels like a lost for words. Where your hearts feels complete and there is no chains wrap around it anymore. To love someone is when you finally love yourself. I know now that love does exist. I thought to love yourself meant you had to love someone else. I know now that I can love myself and love someone as well. Even though I have been through so with all the incidents I have finally come to conclusion I am stronger than I look. I may come off feeble I may have tons of insecurities. One thing I know I am strong and my heart is to. After a past relationship I didn't think I would find love. I dated a nice guy for a while it is just we were not as similar as I thought. He was a nice guy don't get me wrong, but I changed myself for him. In the end I lost myself. I was no longer happy I lived my life only to make him happy. How is that a relationship I wondered. After only having one good day to our memories. SOMETHING HAPPENED!!! I didn't ever want to admit this it hurts to say but another man swoop me off my feet. I felt like I had found my prince. I felt terrible though because I did care for him I did I really really did. The other guy knew how much I cared but he saw how I was not happy. After spending so much time with this other guy I felt like I could be myself again I didn't have to please him at all. I was able to smile and not give a care about anyone. It felt awesome I felt amazing. As I slowly got to know him more I realized that this could be it. I know I am young but doesn't everyone fall in love at any age? My question is; is there really a time frame on feelings and is there really difference in ethnicity when everyone inside is the same? I now know that my heart knows what it wants. That special someone that knows not only to make me smile but knows how to make my heart feel all warm and fuzzy inside. TO bad he doesn't see it!!