just a day....just an ordinary day....just trying to get by....just a boy....an ordinary boy...
lots of people keep asking me how i am and i can honestly say i am good...yeah certain things havent been going well lately but there is so much else in my life....
its amazing to know that no matter what happens or what i look like or what i say or what i do, i know there are always two people who will drop everything and go swinging underneath the stars with me and drive to panera and order broccoli cheddar and smoked turkey on country and share three chairs at starbucks with me and play with mcduff and sit in a driveway somewhere and just talk about life for hours and hours and be counted with me and go to wendys and biggie size it and then wander around somerset and ask strangers if they wanna share or cry at dogs in driveways with me....its amazing to know that even though you never can count on people because they end up breaking your heart, there are two wonderful, beautiful, hilarious, awkward girls that will forever be my life....and each time i spend time with them i come home and watch a sex and the city episode and realize that i am so incredibly lucky to have two people who understand whole heartedly what i mean when i say random stupid things and who care more than anyone else in the world.....i love you both....thank you for always being there....my mom is totally right when she says she can see us being friends for a very very long time....
its amazing to know that i have two amazing parents who take random strangers to the hospital and bring them dinner and make sure they are okay just out of the kindness of their hearts and my dad and i have coldstone dates where we always get cake batter with strawberries and chocolate chips and walk around and talk about life and he describes people as pyschotic little girls and is the cutest man in the world and i can always sit on the kitchen counter and cook dinner with my mom and ask her why boys are weird and she always says "sweetie, i dont think ANYONE has the answer to that....look at your dad...he is the weirdest one of them all...but i still love him to death....and i think thats enough...just loving his weirdness is enough for me..."
a little boy at work asked me what was wrong and my boss told him i had broken up with my boyfriend....five minutes later he asked me if he could talk to me...i said sure and he said he wanted to know if i would go to the cafeteria with him to get lunch and i said sure...we went and ate and i had the most amazing conversation with this little five year old boy...and after we were done he asked me if i would be his girlfriend because i looked like a model to him and we had already eaten lunch so it was like we had already our first date....i couldnt have smiled or loved him enough....today i got to tell him he is in remission....sometimes life is amazing....
before i went to school, my brother made me promise him i wouldnt become a drunken slut....and then he made me promise i would never compromise myself or what i believed in or how i felt for anyone, no matter how cute he was....i think thats why i am ok with whats going on right now...because i am keeping that promise...and thats all that matters....i love my brother....even if he is dirty?
i dont know what to do in life....but i think i am okay with that....
i keep getting ridiculous voicemails and i really dont know what to do about them....
"hey, i'm really sorry for everything i said the other day. i really didnt mean any of it. i love you. you know i do. there has just been a lot of shit going on and i really dont know how to deal with it. so i guess i just take it out on you. i'm sorry. i love you. have a good night. please call me back. you can be mad at me all that you want but please just call me back. i need to hear your voice."
i dont know what you are looking for but i know i dont have it
it started out with a kiss...how did it end up like this?
"hey. i dont know if you got my package in the mail or not but i was just checking in to see how you are. let me know when you get what i sent you. if you dont like it, i can definitely find you something else i am sure you will like. i dont want it to seem like i am obsessing or stalking you, but i just wanted to make sure you are okay. i know things have been kinda rough lately, and i dont want you to think i am looking for rebound play or to swoop in or anything. i really dont care about any of that. i really just want to make sure you are ok. thats all that really matters to me. even if we just end up being friends, all that matters to me is that you are happy. i know you care a lot about people and thats what i love about you- you give yourself wholeheartedly to people. but i know thats also why you seem to get hurt so much. i wish i could protect you from getting hurt but i cant. i dont expect you to say anything, but you are really special and you deserve to be treated like the amazing person that you are. i dont think thats too much to ask for. if you ever need anything, please call me. i would love to sit and be silent on the phone with you or talk about everything. i would love to bring you icing and a spoon and sit in your closet with you....soon....soon, i promise we will definitely do that. have a wonderful night. take care of yourself. call me anytime. i dont want your carebear to get tired of taking care of you now do i? i think you should give her a break and let me take over. i think a real person would work better. i know we havent known each other that long but honestly i can see us being friends for a really long time...just as long as you promise not to obsess over hritik roshan in front of me k? have a great night. goodnight sweetie."
we tried to make it work...you in a cocktail skirt...me in a suit....but it just wasnt me...
i dont believe in the smile that you leave when you walk away and say goodbye....well i dont expect the world to move underneath me but for god's sake could you try...you say you care....i know you wanna be mine....where is your heart?....cuse i really dont feel you...where is your heart....all i really wanna do is believe you
someone told me today when a guy initiates a break it translates to he is hooking up with someone else or wants to hook up with someone else....
you think i'm stupid but the truth is its Cupid...loving you has made me this way....
its amazing to know that no matter what happens or what i look like or what i say or what i do, i know there are always two people who will drop everything and go swinging underneath the stars with me and drive to panera and order broccoli cheddar and smoked turkey on country and share three chairs at starbucks with me and play with mcduff and sit in a driveway somewhere and just talk about life for hours and hours and be counted with me and go to wendys and biggie size it and then wander around somerset and ask strangers if they wanna share or cry at dogs in driveways with me....its amazing to know that even though you never can count on people because they end up breaking your heart, there are two wonderful, beautiful, hilarious, awkward girls that will forever be my life....and each time i spend time with them i come home and watch a sex and the city episode and realize that i am so incredibly lucky to have two people who understand whole heartedly what i mean when i say random stupid things and who care more than anyone else in the world.....i love you both....thank you for always being there....my mom is totally right when she says she can see us being friends for a very very long time....
its amazing to know that i have two amazing parents who take random strangers to the hospital and bring them dinner and make sure they are okay just out of the kindness of their hearts and my dad and i have coldstone dates where we always get cake batter with strawberries and chocolate chips and walk around and talk about life and he describes people as pyschotic little girls and is the cutest man in the world and i can always sit on the kitchen counter and cook dinner with my mom and ask her why boys are weird and she always says "sweetie, i dont think ANYONE has the answer to that....look at your dad...he is the weirdest one of them all...but i still love him to death....and i think thats enough...just loving his weirdness is enough for me..."
a little boy at work asked me what was wrong and my boss told him i had broken up with my boyfriend....five minutes later he asked me if he could talk to me...i said sure and he said he wanted to know if i would go to the cafeteria with him to get lunch and i said sure...we went and ate and i had the most amazing conversation with this little five year old boy...and after we were done he asked me if i would be his girlfriend because i looked like a model to him and we had already eaten lunch so it was like we had already our first date....i couldnt have smiled or loved him enough....today i got to tell him he is in remission....sometimes life is amazing....
before i went to school, my brother made me promise him i wouldnt become a drunken slut....and then he made me promise i would never compromise myself or what i believed in or how i felt for anyone, no matter how cute he was....i think thats why i am ok with whats going on right now...because i am keeping that promise...and thats all that matters....i love my brother....even if he is dirty?
i dont know what to do in life....but i think i am okay with that....
i keep getting ridiculous voicemails and i really dont know what to do about them....
"hey, i'm really sorry for everything i said the other day. i really didnt mean any of it. i love you. you know i do. there has just been a lot of shit going on and i really dont know how to deal with it. so i guess i just take it out on you. i'm sorry. i love you. have a good night. please call me back. you can be mad at me all that you want but please just call me back. i need to hear your voice."
i dont know what you are looking for but i know i dont have it
it started out with a kiss...how did it end up like this?
"hey. i dont know if you got my package in the mail or not but i was just checking in to see how you are. let me know when you get what i sent you. if you dont like it, i can definitely find you something else i am sure you will like. i dont want it to seem like i am obsessing or stalking you, but i just wanted to make sure you are okay. i know things have been kinda rough lately, and i dont want you to think i am looking for rebound play or to swoop in or anything. i really dont care about any of that. i really just want to make sure you are ok. thats all that really matters to me. even if we just end up being friends, all that matters to me is that you are happy. i know you care a lot about people and thats what i love about you- you give yourself wholeheartedly to people. but i know thats also why you seem to get hurt so much. i wish i could protect you from getting hurt but i cant. i dont expect you to say anything, but you are really special and you deserve to be treated like the amazing person that you are. i dont think thats too much to ask for. if you ever need anything, please call me. i would love to sit and be silent on the phone with you or talk about everything. i would love to bring you icing and a spoon and sit in your closet with you....soon....soon, i promise we will definitely do that. have a wonderful night. take care of yourself. call me anytime. i dont want your carebear to get tired of taking care of you now do i? i think you should give her a break and let me take over. i think a real person would work better. i know we havent known each other that long but honestly i can see us being friends for a really long time...just as long as you promise not to obsess over hritik roshan in front of me k? have a great night. goodnight sweetie."
we tried to make it work...you in a cocktail skirt...me in a suit....but it just wasnt me...
i dont believe in the smile that you leave when you walk away and say goodbye....well i dont expect the world to move underneath me but for god's sake could you try...you say you care....i know you wanna be mine....where is your heart?....cuse i really dont feel you...where is your heart....all i really wanna do is believe you
someone told me today when a guy initiates a break it translates to he is hooking up with someone else or wants to hook up with someone else....
you think i'm stupid but the truth is its Cupid...loving you has made me this way....