words.. that left unsaid.
Tonight, I posted another story of mine.
Title: Unspoken Love
Author: z
Starring: Aibu Saki, Nishikido Ryo
Genre: PG15
Poster made by z
When 'All you need is love' isnt enough.
unspoken love.
It’s snowing again tonight.
I looked up above and the white rain falls from the winter sky.
Shivered and cold, I rubbed my hands together.
Just to make me feel a bit warmer.
6 months ago, a promise was made.
That on December 20, we will meet again,
In this place.
I heard footsteps on the snow behind me.
I turn around and saw someone.
But it’s not him.
It’s her.
My bestfriend.
His fiancée.
And then she said,
Ryo is not coming.
He’s missing.
---------------------
‘’Ryo-chan, omedetou (congratulations)!’’ I gave him a hug.
He got accepted in the famous cruise, to be its very own captain.
The youngest captain that the corporate ever had as he’s only 27 years old.
‘’it’s like a miracle, Saki!’’
I still remembered his smile at that time.
‘’so how long you gonna sail?’’
‘’only for 6 months, because this is my first trip.’’
I smiled, ‘’so when you’re finally coming back, I will show you my diploma.’’
He patted my head, ‘’im sorry that I cant be there on the ceremony. But im so happy about it.’’
‘’of course you are.’’ I nodded, he’s the one who paid my tuition, so my graduation will gonna be my gift for him. Like what he said, I was also sad because he’s not gonna be there on the ceremony that held on October.
‘’ne.. when im back, let’s meet up on that place.’’ He said.
I turned to see him as I was thinking.
‘’ah, on our playground?’’ I pointed out.
He nodded and smile, ‘’yes, in your beloved playground, because there’s something that I want to tell you.’’
At that time, I don’t understand what he wants to tell me.
----------------------
He’s my step brother.
Nishikido Ryo.
Im his step younger sister.
Aibu Saki,
Who was born from the mistress’ womb.
Everyone hates my mother, especially his mother.
Everyone hates me, he did too.
But as we grew up,
He accepted my presence.
He understood me.
Better than he used to be.
Better than anyone else.
Of course I love him.
I love how he’s caring about me, when people used to mock me.
I love how he’s smiling to console me, when I was crying because the world hates me.
I love how he doesn’t care that im the illegitimate daughter, while he’s the only legal son.
I love him as my own brother.
Everything I said about him is the truth.
Except the very last part.
-----------------------
‘’so.. you’re the girl that Father told me about?’’ 11 years old Ryo said to me.
Im only 7 years old at that time, I smiled at him, ‘’my name is Saki.’’ Not knowing that he hates me.
And all that I can remember is that he never speaks to me again after that.
Until one day,
‘’where is your mother?’’ 15 years old Ryo asked me.
Im 11, and I already understand about many things better than before. ‘’she died before Father took me here. Why did you ask?’’
I still remember he just said, ‘’never mind.’’ at that time.
But I begin to understand, that his heart slowly melted as he begins to notice me.
Even if his mother’s heart is like.. eternally frozen.
And that year,
‘’otanjoubi omedetou (happy birthday).’’ He gave me a present before he left.
That very moment I knew, he was just the same as me.
We both were angry to the situation.
We’re just the children who were confused of our young life.
We both faced the same situation and stuck in the same life although we’re on a very different position.
People seem not to be able to understand, why he was so nice to me.
People seem not to be able to accept, the fact that he accept me to walk side by side with him.
Even after our father died that year.
Well, I don’t expect them to understand, I don’t need them to accept me.
As long as Ryo-chan is here.
When I decided to work after I graduated high school,
‘’what the hell are you doing, Saki??!’’ 22 years old Ryo was so angry at me as he found out that I was trying to find a job.
‘’I want to work instead of going to college.’’ I said.
And in the end, he’s the one who registered me into one of the most prestigious university in Japan.
From the first time I met him, til the day we separated, things were always happens not like what I expected.
Even to the day his mother announced his engagement, I never expected that im gonna feel that sad.
It’s the day when I realized that Im not more than a step sister for him.
That forever, Im going to be only as his sister.
---------------------------
What? I asked her.
She shed her tears,
The boat was reported to be missing from last month, she said.
Why don’t you tell me? I fought back my tears.
And she answered, but you’re just his step sister.
I swear,
All of my life, although I was suffered by those people
I never fight back.
But now, I looked at my hand,
Then looked at her redden cheek.
I realized what I just done.
So why did you plan to meet him in this place? She shouts at me.
I dont say a thing.
Are you two.. She stops her own sentence. And continued, but you two have the same father!
I know. I know.
I can say that to her, but I wont.
Answer me, do you plan to steal him away from me? she grabbed my shoulder.
I stood there and say to myself, you’re the one who steal him from me.
Tell me, what are you going to do if he appears today? she shook my shoulder.
I stood there and say to her, I don’t know.
I can tell her this, but I wont.
Because it’s him, who said that he wants to tell me something.
And because he doesn’t appear, then I don’t know what he wants to tell me about.
I try to release myself from her,
And when I succeed,
I ran away.
--------------------------
6 months passed,
I got my diploma.
Im so happy, but also sad.
Because he’s not here.
His mother was sick because of her missing son.
On her death bed,
She let me to call her ‘Mom’.
Im so happy, but also sad.
Because he’s still not here.
A year has passed,
I got a job.
I cant feel happy anymore.
I have no one.
His fiancée leaves as she found someone new.
She gave up on him.
But im not.
A year has passed,
And im here.
In my favorite playground.
Wait for him to come,
To appear and finally said what’s on his mind.
Although by the end of the night, he’s nowhere to be found.
If only I can asked him to be mine.
--------------------------
So here I am.
Im still here.
It’s snowing again tonight.
I looked up above and the white rain falls from the winter sky.
Shivered and cold, I rubbed my hands together.
Just to make me feel a bit warmer.
Three years ago, a promise was made.
That on December 20, we will meet again,
In this place.
I heard footsteps on the snow behind me.
I turn around and saw someone.
But he’s not alone.
It’s him!
With someone held his hand.
And a beautiful baby daughter on his arm.
And then he said to me,
Im home.
---------------------------
He told me his stories, how the horrible storm makes the big cruise drowned.
How he lost his memories.
How he has to be on a therapy.
How he finally got it all back.
‘’it’s like a night mare, Saki.’’ Ryo shook his head.
He introduced me to his wife,
A nurse who works on the country where he was found.
He asked me to carry his daughter in my arms.
He cried when he knew his mother was died. But he’s happy for me when I told him I called his mother, as ‘my mom’.
He smiled when he saw my diploma,
‘’good job..’’ Ryo messed my hair lovingly like he used to do.
I don’t speak too much.
I don’t know what to say.
Then he said to me,
‘’hey.. why don’t we go to the playground? But this time, it’s only the two of us..’’
I nodded.
But still didn’t say anything.
-----------------------------
When we arrived in that playground,
I turned around.
I said to him, your fiancée didn’t tell me about the fact that you were missing.
He just smiled, it’s because I said to her,
If something happened to me,
Just tell Saki on the day I supposed to meet her.
So she knew about the promise? I asked him.
He answered me, of course she knew.
I cant wait anymore, so I asked.
Do you remember what you want to tell me that day?
He nodded, but then he paused for a while.
I just want to tell you, he said,
That you have to live your life happily.
After saying that short sentence, he smiled.
I laughs, although my heart aches.
Then I just said to him, you don’t need to tell me, I will live well.
How stupid I am,
Thinking that he might going to say he knew the fact that we’re not related.
I thought he also knew.
But turns out he doesn’t,
Then I will never going to say.
It’s the only secret that I will keep from him.
Because as I look at him and we both smile,
As we were separated for a while,
Now I realized,
I don’t care if he has someone else.
I don’t care if I have to be his sister forever.
Im happy,
As long as he’s healthy and alive,
Im will be fine,
As long as I have Ryo-chan.
-------------------------------------------------------
Now Im staring at her, who walks in the altar.
Saki, she’s going to be married.
She took a glance at me for a while.
Then she smiled.
Im supposed to be the one who walk with her and trust her hand to her future husband,
But her father in law offered to do that.
So with a smile, I let him to do the honor.
I don’t know how many times I smile.
I don’t know how many more times I have to do that.
I just try to accept this as a punishment,
For trying to play with God.
For I was gambling with fate.
If I was coming home,
And meet her in that playground,
I will tell Saki that I love her.
I will tell her that she’s not my father’s child.
Yes, I found out about that before my father died.
And then I understand why he seems never love Saki that much.
I will tell my fiancée to break our engagement.
I will tell my mother to accept Saki no matter what.
If I was coming home safely.
But then what?
For I hurt Saki by making her wait too long,
For I think Saki was leaving me while she always waiting me to come home even after everyone left me.
Everything was ruined.
So that’s why,
As now life turns into something unexpected,
I will accept it.
I love my wife,
And God knows how I love my daughter.
But Saki, is the one and only that I can never forget.
For her sake,
I will be her brother forever.
As Im gonna keep one secret from her, it’s the price I have to pay.
If only I said everything on the day before I left.
Things might go differently.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
‘’Ryo-chan, omedetou (congratulations)!’’ She gave me a hug.
I got accepted in the famous cruise, to be its very own captain.
The youngest captain that the corporate ever had as im only 27 years old.
‘’it’s like a miracle, Saki!’’
I still remembered she smile at that time.
‘’so how long you gonna sail?’’
‘’only for 6 months, because this is my first trip.’’
She smiled, ‘’so when you’re finally coming back, I will show you my diploma.’’
I patted her head, ‘’im sorry that I cant be there on the ceremony. But im so happy about it.’’
‘’of course you are.’’ She nodded.
Im gonna be the happiest one when she graduated, as I was the one who’s eager that she supposed to be in college, because she’s just so smart since she’s still so young.
Im so proud of her. But like what I said, I was also sad because im not gonna be there on the ceremony that held on October.
‘’ne..’’ I said, ‘’there’s something I want to tell you.’’
She turned around and tilted her head.
‘’what is it?’’ she asked.
‘’I always love you, Saki. Even before I knew you’re not really my sister, then after I found out, until today, ..until forever.’’ I said it.
And I never see her smiling that beautiful.
************************************************************************
Hiii~~ im backk.
just a note from me, the last part is an alternate ending. what if Ryo confessed that night? what if Saki finally got the answer of her feelings?
i hope i didnt make you confused :P
Title: Unspoken Love
Author: z
Starring: Aibu Saki, Nishikido Ryo
Genre: PG15
Poster made by z
When 'All you need is love' isnt enough.
unspoken love.
It’s snowing again tonight.
I looked up above and the white rain falls from the winter sky.
Shivered and cold, I rubbed my hands together.
Just to make me feel a bit warmer.
6 months ago, a promise was made.
That on December 20, we will meet again,
In this place.
I heard footsteps on the snow behind me.
I turn around and saw someone.
But it’s not him.
It’s her.
My bestfriend.
His fiancée.
And then she said,
Ryo is not coming.
He’s missing.
---------------------
‘’Ryo-chan, omedetou (congratulations)!’’ I gave him a hug.
He got accepted in the famous cruise, to be its very own captain.
The youngest captain that the corporate ever had as he’s only 27 years old.
‘’it’s like a miracle, Saki!’’
I still remembered his smile at that time.
‘’so how long you gonna sail?’’
‘’only for 6 months, because this is my first trip.’’
I smiled, ‘’so when you’re finally coming back, I will show you my diploma.’’
He patted my head, ‘’im sorry that I cant be there on the ceremony. But im so happy about it.’’
‘’of course you are.’’ I nodded, he’s the one who paid my tuition, so my graduation will gonna be my gift for him. Like what he said, I was also sad because he’s not gonna be there on the ceremony that held on October.
‘’ne.. when im back, let’s meet up on that place.’’ He said.
I turned to see him as I was thinking.
‘’ah, on our playground?’’ I pointed out.
He nodded and smile, ‘’yes, in your beloved playground, because there’s something that I want to tell you.’’
At that time, I don’t understand what he wants to tell me.
----------------------
He’s my step brother.
Nishikido Ryo.
Im his step younger sister.
Aibu Saki,
Who was born from the mistress’ womb.
Everyone hates my mother, especially his mother.
Everyone hates me, he did too.
But as we grew up,
He accepted my presence.
He understood me.
Better than he used to be.
Better than anyone else.
Of course I love him.
I love how he’s caring about me, when people used to mock me.
I love how he’s smiling to console me, when I was crying because the world hates me.
I love how he doesn’t care that im the illegitimate daughter, while he’s the only legal son.
I love him as my own brother.
Everything I said about him is the truth.
Except the very last part.
-----------------------
‘’so.. you’re the girl that Father told me about?’’ 11 years old Ryo said to me.
Im only 7 years old at that time, I smiled at him, ‘’my name is Saki.’’ Not knowing that he hates me.
And all that I can remember is that he never speaks to me again after that.
Until one day,
‘’where is your mother?’’ 15 years old Ryo asked me.
Im 11, and I already understand about many things better than before. ‘’she died before Father took me here. Why did you ask?’’
I still remember he just said, ‘’never mind.’’ at that time.
But I begin to understand, that his heart slowly melted as he begins to notice me.
Even if his mother’s heart is like.. eternally frozen.
And that year,
‘’otanjoubi omedetou (happy birthday).’’ He gave me a present before he left.
That very moment I knew, he was just the same as me.
We both were angry to the situation.
We’re just the children who were confused of our young life.
We both faced the same situation and stuck in the same life although we’re on a very different position.
People seem not to be able to understand, why he was so nice to me.
People seem not to be able to accept, the fact that he accept me to walk side by side with him.
Even after our father died that year.
Well, I don’t expect them to understand, I don’t need them to accept me.
As long as Ryo-chan is here.
When I decided to work after I graduated high school,
‘’what the hell are you doing, Saki??!’’ 22 years old Ryo was so angry at me as he found out that I was trying to find a job.
‘’I want to work instead of going to college.’’ I said.
And in the end, he’s the one who registered me into one of the most prestigious university in Japan.
From the first time I met him, til the day we separated, things were always happens not like what I expected.
Even to the day his mother announced his engagement, I never expected that im gonna feel that sad.
It’s the day when I realized that Im not more than a step sister for him.
That forever, Im going to be only as his sister.
---------------------------
What? I asked her.
She shed her tears,
The boat was reported to be missing from last month, she said.
Why don’t you tell me? I fought back my tears.
And she answered, but you’re just his step sister.
I swear,
All of my life, although I was suffered by those people
I never fight back.
But now, I looked at my hand,
Then looked at her redden cheek.
I realized what I just done.
So why did you plan to meet him in this place? She shouts at me.
I dont say a thing.
Are you two.. She stops her own sentence. And continued, but you two have the same father!
I know. I know.
I can say that to her, but I wont.
Answer me, do you plan to steal him away from me? she grabbed my shoulder.
I stood there and say to myself, you’re the one who steal him from me.
Tell me, what are you going to do if he appears today? she shook my shoulder.
I stood there and say to her, I don’t know.
I can tell her this, but I wont.
Because it’s him, who said that he wants to tell me something.
And because he doesn’t appear, then I don’t know what he wants to tell me about.
I try to release myself from her,
And when I succeed,
I ran away.
--------------------------
6 months passed,
I got my diploma.
Im so happy, but also sad.
Because he’s not here.
His mother was sick because of her missing son.
On her death bed,
She let me to call her ‘Mom’.
Im so happy, but also sad.
Because he’s still not here.
A year has passed,
I got a job.
I cant feel happy anymore.
I have no one.
His fiancée leaves as she found someone new.
She gave up on him.
But im not.
A year has passed,
And im here.
In my favorite playground.
Wait for him to come,
To appear and finally said what’s on his mind.
Although by the end of the night, he’s nowhere to be found.
If only I can asked him to be mine.
--------------------------
So here I am.
Im still here.
It’s snowing again tonight.
I looked up above and the white rain falls from the winter sky.
Shivered and cold, I rubbed my hands together.
Just to make me feel a bit warmer.
Three years ago, a promise was made.
That on December 20, we will meet again,
In this place.
I heard footsteps on the snow behind me.
I turn around and saw someone.
But he’s not alone.
It’s him!
With someone held his hand.
And a beautiful baby daughter on his arm.
And then he said to me,
Im home.
---------------------------
He told me his stories, how the horrible storm makes the big cruise drowned.
How he lost his memories.
How he has to be on a therapy.
How he finally got it all back.
‘’it’s like a night mare, Saki.’’ Ryo shook his head.
He introduced me to his wife,
A nurse who works on the country where he was found.
He asked me to carry his daughter in my arms.
He cried when he knew his mother was died. But he’s happy for me when I told him I called his mother, as ‘my mom’.
He smiled when he saw my diploma,
‘’good job..’’ Ryo messed my hair lovingly like he used to do.
I don’t speak too much.
I don’t know what to say.
Then he said to me,
‘’hey.. why don’t we go to the playground? But this time, it’s only the two of us..’’
I nodded.
But still didn’t say anything.
-----------------------------
When we arrived in that playground,
I turned around.
I said to him, your fiancée didn’t tell me about the fact that you were missing.
He just smiled, it’s because I said to her,
If something happened to me,
Just tell Saki on the day I supposed to meet her.
So she knew about the promise? I asked him.
He answered me, of course she knew.
I cant wait anymore, so I asked.
Do you remember what you want to tell me that day?
He nodded, but then he paused for a while.
I just want to tell you, he said,
That you have to live your life happily.
After saying that short sentence, he smiled.
I laughs, although my heart aches.
Then I just said to him, you don’t need to tell me, I will live well.
How stupid I am,
Thinking that he might going to say he knew the fact that we’re not related.
I thought he also knew.
But turns out he doesn’t,
Then I will never going to say.
It’s the only secret that I will keep from him.
Because as I look at him and we both smile,
As we were separated for a while,
Now I realized,
I don’t care if he has someone else.
I don’t care if I have to be his sister forever.
Im happy,
As long as he’s healthy and alive,
Im will be fine,
As long as I have Ryo-chan.
-------------------------------------------------------
Now Im staring at her, who walks in the altar.
Saki, she’s going to be married.
She took a glance at me for a while.
Then she smiled.
Im supposed to be the one who walk with her and trust her hand to her future husband,
But her father in law offered to do that.
So with a smile, I let him to do the honor.
I don’t know how many times I smile.
I don’t know how many more times I have to do that.
I just try to accept this as a punishment,
For trying to play with God.
For I was gambling with fate.
If I was coming home,
And meet her in that playground,
I will tell Saki that I love her.
I will tell her that she’s not my father’s child.
Yes, I found out about that before my father died.
And then I understand why he seems never love Saki that much.
I will tell my fiancée to break our engagement.
I will tell my mother to accept Saki no matter what.
If I was coming home safely.
But then what?
For I hurt Saki by making her wait too long,
For I think Saki was leaving me while she always waiting me to come home even after everyone left me.
Everything was ruined.
So that’s why,
As now life turns into something unexpected,
I will accept it.
I love my wife,
And God knows how I love my daughter.
But Saki, is the one and only that I can never forget.
For her sake,
I will be her brother forever.
As Im gonna keep one secret from her, it’s the price I have to pay.
If only I said everything on the day before I left.
Things might go differently.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
‘’Ryo-chan, omedetou (congratulations)!’’ She gave me a hug.
I got accepted in the famous cruise, to be its very own captain.
The youngest captain that the corporate ever had as im only 27 years old.
‘’it’s like a miracle, Saki!’’
I still remembered she smile at that time.
‘’so how long you gonna sail?’’
‘’only for 6 months, because this is my first trip.’’
She smiled, ‘’so when you’re finally coming back, I will show you my diploma.’’
I patted her head, ‘’im sorry that I cant be there on the ceremony. But im so happy about it.’’
‘’of course you are.’’ She nodded.
Im gonna be the happiest one when she graduated, as I was the one who’s eager that she supposed to be in college, because she’s just so smart since she’s still so young.
Im so proud of her. But like what I said, I was also sad because im not gonna be there on the ceremony that held on October.
‘’ne..’’ I said, ‘’there’s something I want to tell you.’’
She turned around and tilted her head.
‘’what is it?’’ she asked.
‘’I always love you, Saki. Even before I knew you’re not really my sister, then after I found out, until today, ..until forever.’’ I said it.
And I never see her smiling that beautiful.
************************************************************************
Hiii~~ im backk.
just a note from me, the last part is an alternate ending. what if Ryo confessed that night? what if Saki finally got the answer of her feelings?
i hope i didnt make you confused :P