the rainy season will end soon.
here's one of my one-shot. I decided to post it here in LJ.
I hope you'll enjoy it :)
Title: Rain Woman
Author: z
Starring: Miura Haruma, Inoue Mao, Oguri Shun
Genre: PG13
Poster made by z
Haruma only realized it when it's already too late.
the rain woman.
The young lady in front of me put her cup of coffee down on the table and said to me, ''she.. was the one who brighten up the day, wasnt she?'' she smiled as I know she must be reminiscing right now. ‘’you were so lucky that she loves you so much, Haru-chan.’’
I looked at her while she's pacing out, staring at the window glass. Her big eyes, her long lashes, are just as captivating as yours. The way her lips curled when it forms a smile, it's just the same way as you always do.
I can see from her eyes, that she must be as sad as I am. No, I bet she felt so sad even way more.
How can she's not, she lost you.. Her only twin sister.
It seem like yesterday, ne Mao-chan? When you and your family moved to the house next to mine almost 8 years ago.
At that time, I was just captivated by you two, the cute onee-sans (older sisters), even though Im two years younger than you. The more I know both of you, the Inoue twins, I understand that despite you two are identical, each one of you were so different.
You, Mao-chan, are always energetic and never want to lose to anyone. You were also straight-forward as you were the one who confess your feelings for me. On the other hand, your older twin sister is so calm, because her body is weak. She was the one that you always protect even though you're the youngest one.
She always said that you were born as her hero, and you are the little girl’s hero, the one that you saved that day on the accident.
The restaurant's doorbell rang as it brought me back to reality.
I looked up and see your sister turned around to see who's coming. She's smiling when she saw who it is.
As Im smiling too, I think that I should do this.
Mao-chan, you were always been so honest to me. And as today's one year commemoration of your death, I really want to be honest to you, for the first time. I just can convey it this way, wherever you are right now I hope you can hear my thoughts.
I never really had the chance to answer your feelings either, because one day after you confessed, the accident happened.
Finally, it took one year for me to finally be honest to you, and to myself.
I fell in love with one of the Inoue twins. The one who's sitting right in front of me now.
Gomenasai (im sorry), Mao-chan, hontouni (really). The truth is she's the one that I always loved.
The guy who were just came into the restaurant then sit beside her and smiled at me, ''thanks for accompanied her while I took Okaasan (mother) home, Haruma, she hasnt eat her lunch.''
I smiled back to him, ''no problem, aniki (older brother).''
Yes, Mao-chan, I loved your twin sister.. The one who has those captivated sad eyes, but not sparkling beautifully like yours. The one who always smile in serene, not encouraging like yours. The one who chose to be with my older brother Shun instead of me.
The one that doesnt love me just the way you did.
So why the one I love is not you?
My heart seems to never find the answer of that question.
Then again, even if it did, I already lost you. You’re gone forever. But tell me, Mao-chan, do you forgive me?
Suddenly, the rain is falling.
So the sky is crying for you?
One, two.. Im counting the rain drops that ticked on the window glass. Just like what you always do.
''ne, Mao-chan always loved the rain, doesnt she?'' your sister asked it eventually.
''yeah..'' I smiled a bit.
And then suddenly a memory hits me.
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A couple of years ago,
''ne, Haru-chan.. I want to be remembered as the rain.''
''nande (why)?'' Haruma laughs at Mao's words that time.
''because although I never gonna be your sun, at least Im gonna be the rain.. That will cleared up your sky in the very end.''
''tsk, but the sky is clear only after the rain. So why did you want to be something that will be vanished?''
Mao just smiled mischievously, ''that's what makes it more dramatic, isnt it?'' but then her smile turns into a calm one, ''besides, I dont want to makes you blind with light like the sun, I prefer to be the one who gives you the mysterious yet calm feeling like the rain.''
Then Haruma laughs, ''really? How can a girl like you be mysterious and calm, huh?''
And she only would laugh with him too.
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Ah. Now I understand.
You knew my feelings, didnt you, Mao-chan?
You were the rain, and your sister is the one you thought as my sun.
I laughed in irony.
You really turn into such a mystery. And you did vanish. How can you be like this?
How could things be as dramatic as this is?
''Haru..-chan? Doushitano (what is it)?'' your sister asked me as she exchanged stare with my brother.
I shook my head, ''nothing.. It's just..''
You.. no, I think it’s not about forgiveness.
''eh, nani (what)?'' this time my brother Shun asked me.
The thing is, you already forgive me, Mao, from the day you still choose to love me although I don’t feel the same way. You really are the one with the biggest heart.
Im not proud of what I am, and I feel even more guilty somehow. But now I understand what your sister told me earlier. I am so lucky to have your love, because.. your capability of loving is so overwhelming.
My hand pressed my weary eyes as I shook my head.
Im just one lucky bastard that doesn’t realize it until the rain vanished and turned into a blue clear sky. Im just one selfish younger boy who doesn’t realize that a great person loves me, until she was gone and not gonna coming back no matter how.
Now as the rain has stopped, I went closer to the window and pointed to the sky up there, answering my brother’s question,
''she gave me a clear blue sky.''
I promised you, Mao-chan, that I will turn my guilt into a will. Im willing to be someone that can make you feel even more proud.
Im not gonna look into the past, although you might gonna remain forever in my mind.
But just this once, only for today.. I really wish I could turn back the time.
I wish..
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I hope you'll enjoy it :)
Title: Rain Woman
Author: z
Starring: Miura Haruma, Inoue Mao, Oguri Shun
Genre: PG13
Poster made by z
Haruma only realized it when it's already too late.
the rain woman.
The young lady in front of me put her cup of coffee down on the table and said to me, ''she.. was the one who brighten up the day, wasnt she?'' she smiled as I know she must be reminiscing right now. ‘’you were so lucky that she loves you so much, Haru-chan.’’
I looked at her while she's pacing out, staring at the window glass. Her big eyes, her long lashes, are just as captivating as yours. The way her lips curled when it forms a smile, it's just the same way as you always do.
I can see from her eyes, that she must be as sad as I am. No, I bet she felt so sad even way more.
How can she's not, she lost you.. Her only twin sister.
It seem like yesterday, ne Mao-chan? When you and your family moved to the house next to mine almost 8 years ago.
At that time, I was just captivated by you two, the cute onee-sans (older sisters), even though Im two years younger than you. The more I know both of you, the Inoue twins, I understand that despite you two are identical, each one of you were so different.
You, Mao-chan, are always energetic and never want to lose to anyone. You were also straight-forward as you were the one who confess your feelings for me. On the other hand, your older twin sister is so calm, because her body is weak. She was the one that you always protect even though you're the youngest one.
She always said that you were born as her hero, and you are the little girl’s hero, the one that you saved that day on the accident.
The restaurant's doorbell rang as it brought me back to reality.
I looked up and see your sister turned around to see who's coming. She's smiling when she saw who it is.
As Im smiling too, I think that I should do this.
Mao-chan, you were always been so honest to me. And as today's one year commemoration of your death, I really want to be honest to you, for the first time. I just can convey it this way, wherever you are right now I hope you can hear my thoughts.
I never really had the chance to answer your feelings either, because one day after you confessed, the accident happened.
Finally, it took one year for me to finally be honest to you, and to myself.
I fell in love with one of the Inoue twins. The one who's sitting right in front of me now.
Gomenasai (im sorry), Mao-chan, hontouni (really). The truth is she's the one that I always loved.
The guy who were just came into the restaurant then sit beside her and smiled at me, ''thanks for accompanied her while I took Okaasan (mother) home, Haruma, she hasnt eat her lunch.''
I smiled back to him, ''no problem, aniki (older brother).''
Yes, Mao-chan, I loved your twin sister.. The one who has those captivated sad eyes, but not sparkling beautifully like yours. The one who always smile in serene, not encouraging like yours. The one who chose to be with my older brother Shun instead of me.
The one that doesnt love me just the way you did.
So why the one I love is not you?
My heart seems to never find the answer of that question.
Then again, even if it did, I already lost you. You’re gone forever. But tell me, Mao-chan, do you forgive me?
Suddenly, the rain is falling.
So the sky is crying for you?
One, two.. Im counting the rain drops that ticked on the window glass. Just like what you always do.
''ne, Mao-chan always loved the rain, doesnt she?'' your sister asked it eventually.
''yeah..'' I smiled a bit.
And then suddenly a memory hits me.
--------------------------------------
A couple of years ago,
''ne, Haru-chan.. I want to be remembered as the rain.''
''nande (why)?'' Haruma laughs at Mao's words that time.
''because although I never gonna be your sun, at least Im gonna be the rain.. That will cleared up your sky in the very end.''
''tsk, but the sky is clear only after the rain. So why did you want to be something that will be vanished?''
Mao just smiled mischievously, ''that's what makes it more dramatic, isnt it?'' but then her smile turns into a calm one, ''besides, I dont want to makes you blind with light like the sun, I prefer to be the one who gives you the mysterious yet calm feeling like the rain.''
Then Haruma laughs, ''really? How can a girl like you be mysterious and calm, huh?''
And she only would laugh with him too.
---------------------
Ah. Now I understand.
You knew my feelings, didnt you, Mao-chan?
You were the rain, and your sister is the one you thought as my sun.
I laughed in irony.
You really turn into such a mystery. And you did vanish. How can you be like this?
How could things be as dramatic as this is?
''Haru..-chan? Doushitano (what is it)?'' your sister asked me as she exchanged stare with my brother.
I shook my head, ''nothing.. It's just..''
You.. no, I think it’s not about forgiveness.
''eh, nani (what)?'' this time my brother Shun asked me.
The thing is, you already forgive me, Mao, from the day you still choose to love me although I don’t feel the same way. You really are the one with the biggest heart.
Im not proud of what I am, and I feel even more guilty somehow. But now I understand what your sister told me earlier. I am so lucky to have your love, because.. your capability of loving is so overwhelming.
My hand pressed my weary eyes as I shook my head.
Im just one lucky bastard that doesn’t realize it until the rain vanished and turned into a blue clear sky. Im just one selfish younger boy who doesn’t realize that a great person loves me, until she was gone and not gonna coming back no matter how.
Now as the rain has stopped, I went closer to the window and pointed to the sky up there, answering my brother’s question,
''she gave me a clear blue sky.''
I promised you, Mao-chan, that I will turn my guilt into a will. Im willing to be someone that can make you feel even more proud.
Im not gonna look into the past, although you might gonna remain forever in my mind.
But just this once, only for today.. I really wish I could turn back the time.
I wish..
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