Yo... im alone...
Have you ever just REALLY wanted to be alone... just so you could be sad? i know this sounds pretty whiney and emotional, but, its how i feel... the sadness is sort of a comfort to me in times of craziness and confusion... it reminds me that i do still posess the ability to stop and think about something... Lately i've started remembering who i was when i started this journey of life, and it saddens me that i have managed to get so far away from him... i am working my way back it will take time and i'll get there... but something about just relaxing and thinking of all the things i have done wrong, and letting myself get saddened by them is reassuring... it's like telling myself, "Look, you know its wrong... you care." and i do... im starting to care about alot of things i forgot along the way... such as; giving what i can hen i can, without being taken advantage of... Respecting myself and those around me utterly... forcing myself to maintain focus... and looking for substance in my companions rather than just a face to chill with. i am working out the kinks in a few of these... Oh and i am starting to feel ready to be in a relationship again, which i haven't in a while... which means i've gotten a grip on myself enough to know who i plan to be... My favorite qoute on that particular subject belongs to me,
"Find out who you are, make yourself happy, learn to live just as you want to... then look around... if someone is there who agrees, and doesn't need you, look closer..."
it sums up my belief of being happy WITH someone not FOR or BECAUSE of someone... alot of people don't understand this principle of filling your own gaps rather than looking for someone to fill them for you. Simply put, find someone who compliments to happiness you have given yourself... because as soon as your happiness depends on someone else you begin to loathe them... little by little... but you do... oh, and don't ever go looking for a relationship, BUT don't turn a blind eye to the people around you either... personally i just want company i can count on to exist with me.
love love,
Shookie
"Find out who you are, make yourself happy, learn to live just as you want to... then look around... if someone is there who agrees, and doesn't need you, look closer..."
it sums up my belief of being happy WITH someone not FOR or BECAUSE of someone... alot of people don't understand this principle of filling your own gaps rather than looking for someone to fill them for you. Simply put, find someone who compliments to happiness you have given yourself... because as soon as your happiness depends on someone else you begin to loathe them... little by little... but you do... oh, and don't ever go looking for a relationship, BUT don't turn a blind eye to the people around you either... personally i just want company i can count on to exist with me.
love love,
Shookie