Early morning thoughts...
I once met a girl who gave me more than the time of day,
But alas i let myself get carried away.
The beauty i saw was unmeasured next to the beauty i craved,
I fell into an idiotic daze.
I caused many issues, and made many mistakes.
The truth was hidden or so was thought.
But never have i been an ignorant man.
Never have i expected things to go as planned.
She gave me a kiss and i tried to take her hand,
Never expecting it was out of my reach.
I look back now and see myself then,
I wish i could tell him what it means to be a friend.
I tried to take it all away, and replace it with myself,
If only i could have put my dillusions on a shelf.
It caused distance with a friend, and awkwardness in the end.
Everyone has something to hide, and no one questions why...
I didn't, and still don't but things sometimes happen outside of our plans,
Sometimes they just happen, and no one knows why.
I have never been one to hurt, or one to cry,
Life's to short to want to die.
I let it flow right off my back, but no one seemed to get back on track.
So here i sit one friend less, full of regrets and emptiness,
Over the friend i had and the friend i lost, the stupid clinging without thinking of the cost.
I had emotion about a mistake i once made i was told to get over lol... i miss a friend i was close to, and seem to think of alot. if you read this you'll prolly know who you are, and hopefully you still know i am here, and i wish i could get back to where we were before i let myself get caught up... Everyone always says that after a long relationship you are quick to grab for anything i never believed that until this event occured... The first person to show me compassion and any interest, that i was interested in, and i tried to take it way to far lol... in the end, i slipped, and didn't see it lol... I don't like making mistakes, and i like to make people better, but sometimes an anomaly (sp?) arises that is outside my realm of experience and this was one of such events, and one of such women... lol, and the world is better off for her existence :) anyways g'nite LJ, I am out :) Much love, Eric
But alas i let myself get carried away.
The beauty i saw was unmeasured next to the beauty i craved,
I fell into an idiotic daze.
I caused many issues, and made many mistakes.
The truth was hidden or so was thought.
But never have i been an ignorant man.
Never have i expected things to go as planned.
She gave me a kiss and i tried to take her hand,
Never expecting it was out of my reach.
I look back now and see myself then,
I wish i could tell him what it means to be a friend.
I tried to take it all away, and replace it with myself,
If only i could have put my dillusions on a shelf.
It caused distance with a friend, and awkwardness in the end.
Everyone has something to hide, and no one questions why...
I didn't, and still don't but things sometimes happen outside of our plans,
Sometimes they just happen, and no one knows why.
I have never been one to hurt, or one to cry,
Life's to short to want to die.
I let it flow right off my back, but no one seemed to get back on track.
So here i sit one friend less, full of regrets and emptiness,
Over the friend i had and the friend i lost, the stupid clinging without thinking of the cost.
I had emotion about a mistake i once made i was told to get over lol... i miss a friend i was close to, and seem to think of alot. if you read this you'll prolly know who you are, and hopefully you still know i am here, and i wish i could get back to where we were before i let myself get caught up... Everyone always says that after a long relationship you are quick to grab for anything i never believed that until this event occured... The first person to show me compassion and any interest, that i was interested in, and i tried to take it way to far lol... in the end, i slipped, and didn't see it lol... I don't like making mistakes, and i like to make people better, but sometimes an anomaly (sp?) arises that is outside my realm of experience and this was one of such events, and one of such women... lol, and the world is better off for her existence :) anyways g'nite LJ, I am out :) Much love, Eric