I'm still alive and kicking
I hate the fact that i live so far away from everything that i love. Obviously i have my family, but they can only help you so far. I mean there a things you can talk about with your parents that you can only say to your friends. I have friends here but they've known each other for ages. You can't just expect them to let you into their close circles. I have some cool friends now but i'll never be able to open myself up the way i could with my old friends. I got hurt when i had to move and i don't want to open myself up to that pain again. I know it's alme excuse but it really hurt for a long time. I'm fine now, but i learned a valuable lesson. I won't fall for that one twice. Now there is another issue bothering me. There don't seem to be too many hot guys that i'm interested in on this side of the world and it seems to be working even better on the other side. No- one seems to be interested in me. There is this guy Michael who is sending mixed signals but that doesn't change the fact that he hasn't asked me out yet. This presents a major problem. Oh well, i have to focus on school right now anyway. I only have two months left and i have to do extremely well if i want a good future so i need to stop thinking about boys and most of their bdy parts. Gotta go. Hasta