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It's gonna be one year since my car accident on Tuesday. One whole year...it went by so fast. It feels just like yesterday that I was in the hospital in a tremendous amount of pain.
I haven't been doing too good lately. I keep having flashbacks...and then I cry. I haven't told anyone about them lately. I doubt that anyone would want to deal with yet another one of my problems. I have to admit, I feel somewhat scared. I was so close to dying that night and there was only one person who was there with me.
I don't think he knows how much I really love him. I truly believe that he's the sole reason for me being here today. And, now, that the day approaches and the flashbacks are more frequent, I can only wish that he'll be by my side to help me get over it.
I've struggled with this so much and I had to learn to keep it to myself. I really don't want to be alone on Tuesday. I just wish I could erase it all from my memory and there would be no accident imprinted in my brain. But, I guess I'm gonna have to be strong and overcome it. I can't let it get to me anymore...I have other shit to worry about.
I haven't been doing too good lately. I keep having flashbacks...and then I cry. I haven't told anyone about them lately. I doubt that anyone would want to deal with yet another one of my problems. I have to admit, I feel somewhat scared. I was so close to dying that night and there was only one person who was there with me.
I don't think he knows how much I really love him. I truly believe that he's the sole reason for me being here today. And, now, that the day approaches and the flashbacks are more frequent, I can only wish that he'll be by my side to help me get over it.
I've struggled with this so much and I had to learn to keep it to myself. I really don't want to be alone on Tuesday. I just wish I could erase it all from my memory and there would be no accident imprinted in my brain. But, I guess I'm gonna have to be strong and overcome it. I can't let it get to me anymore...I have other shit to worry about.