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I feel like I am searching for a dream that I have long ago awaken from. I'm looking for a feeling that is no longer attainable. I want to feel loved...to feel like I am important to someone. I want to be spoiled; to have someone call me like 10 times a day just to tell me that they love me and wanted to hear my voice. I want to come first - not pushed aside for your friends. I want to have a fuckin reason to wake up in the morning. I feel like there's no real meaning to my life right now. Everything's vanilla...it's so bland. I need some motivation...I need someone who actually wants my company; who actually looks forward to seeing me over and over again. lol