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It hurts...not because of what he does to me, but because people can see it and point it out to me. I can see in their eyes that they're embarrassed for me. They ask me why I put up with it. Why do I put up with it?
When you fall in love, you become so completely selfless; you don't care what happens to you as long as the other person is happy. You go out of your way to do anything to make them happy, leaving your own happiness behind. But shouldn't they care about your happiness, too? Isn't that fair?
Was I just being used? Am I really that stupid? So many of my questions go unanswered...I often find difficulty actually voicing them out. And even so, they often go ignored or not responded to.
I'd like to believe that I deserve better than this. I'd like to think that maybe I will one day find all this love reciprocated.
This all seems like nonsense...I wish things could be more simple.
When you fall in love, you become so completely selfless; you don't care what happens to you as long as the other person is happy. You go out of your way to do anything to make them happy, leaving your own happiness behind. But shouldn't they care about your happiness, too? Isn't that fair?
Was I just being used? Am I really that stupid? So many of my questions go unanswered...I often find difficulty actually voicing them out. And even so, they often go ignored or not responded to.
I'd like to believe that I deserve better than this. I'd like to think that maybe I will one day find all this love reciprocated.
This all seems like nonsense...I wish things could be more simple.