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I wish someone could just tell me what to do with myself and my life, because I don't seem to be able to achieve anything on my own. I feel stuck, mired, like I've made so many mistakes that its not worth even trying to ever do anything again, because it will just be another spectacular failure. I just want to hide for the rest of my life. I've heard every platitude. I've heard every "I'm praying for you." (Which I appreciate. I do.)
I can't seem to move my own life, or run it, or do anything significant.
And I'm tired. And I don't give two fucks anymore. I'm sick of trying to figure myself out. I'm tired of trying. I don't see any point, period. There's no point in this LJ, or in anything else I do. I'd get rid of this but I still check up on some people. I can't do a fucking thing for them, but I still see if they're there. So many people have just left, not giving a damn if anyone worried about them or wanted to say goodbye, so honestly, fuck them too. That's just rude. Don't come into someone's life if you're just gonna fuck off and leave again. Make a commitment or say bye and go the hell away.
I can't seem to move my own life, or run it, or do anything significant.
And I'm tired. And I don't give two fucks anymore. I'm sick of trying to figure myself out. I'm tired of trying. I don't see any point, period. There's no point in this LJ, or in anything else I do. I'd get rid of this but I still check up on some people. I can't do a fucking thing for them, but I still see if they're there. So many people have just left, not giving a damn if anyone worried about them or wanted to say goodbye, so honestly, fuck them too. That's just rude. Don't come into someone's life if you're just gonna fuck off and leave again. Make a commitment or say bye and go the hell away.