SAD
I really miss my Nannagram. man - it's painful. Really painful that she is gone. I hate it so much. it makes me feel kinda anxious-like I better get snapping to it and get things in order so i can be closer to my mom.I have alot i want to get settled and I have to do it from here, but i would really liek to weave a lifestyle that allows me to hang out with mom for good chunks of time. People die. they really do! And you have no control over it. It was hard coming back to California because this is where I had most of my adult relationship with Anne-Lore. So even though she was in Canada-- when I came back here it kinda hit made it more real that she is gone. This is where she was really a big part of my life. We talked on the phone so often...pretended to have breakfast together n' stuff.oiks! hurts!