All aboard the train of woe is me
So what is it with me these past couple of days?
I'm teary, my mascara is smudged and my patience is shot. I don't feel confident, I don't feel attractive, I'm having one of those down periods. I guess we all go through those sometimes.
I feel lonely and ridiculous, and lethargic today. Maybe because it's Friday night and I wish I had someplace to be. Find your own fun is all fine and well for a majority of the time, but there comes a moment when you really wish your friends weren't busy for an evening. I guess there's always tomorrow night. Miss Alex you do not know how much I am looking forward to a girl's night. I need one desperately.I'm embarassed to say that I had the water works flowing this evening while my father sat and tried to comfort me. Yep, I'm guilty for feeling sorry for myself. Terribly guilty of it. I guess everything's playing a factor. For some reason I was reviewing my guy status over the span of eighteen years. What is it with being whistled at by forty year olds? You begin to wonder if guys your age even exist.
Tonight was a bit of an embarassing emotional rollercoaster. I went out and bought myself one of those fashion magazines that I hate reading, to try and comfort myself in the girliness of it all. Then I ate my supper and watched America's Next Top model. I'm feeling a bit better than I was.
I'm going to snap out of this.