i hate you
ok .... so that last night of the show was amazing! i cried for a long time, that kinda sucked .. but yeah ... bottom line i love you all.
coops wrote me a letter saying a bunch of stuff that made me cry.
Today was a really bad day i guess. I have my period and i am just soo stressed. i dont know whats going through my head but i am jsut so confused about life in general. People i thought i knew and could trust turned out to be real assholes. I dont know ne thing any more. I feel like i cant trust any one to tell me the truth. Like everyone has to sugar coat things to make me feel better, or to protect me. I Dont wnt to be proteted. I DONT WANT TO BE LIED TO.
Right now there are 2 people i cna think of on the top of my head in PL that i cant trust and go to all the time no matter what. I cant wait to get away from everyone else ... I can honestly say that i hate pretty much everyone else right now. And im sorry for those 2 people that i love and trust but i cant wait to get out of here ... and you will be the only ones that i miss. You know who you are. and actually he is graduating and she doesnt even live in PL most of the time ... so i wont be commin back to PL for a long time after i leave for kean.
there is so much more that i want to say now ... but i cant actually rant about any of it because it cant be shared with the public which angers me as well .. because i jsut want to scream out on the top of my lungs that i see straight through your act and i know everything .. but i will stay silenced for now .. but not for this persons own good ... but for the good of the other ppl involved.
For a while i may not act like myself, i need time to relax and adjust
coops wrote me a letter saying a bunch of stuff that made me cry.
Today was a really bad day i guess. I have my period and i am just soo stressed. i dont know whats going through my head but i am jsut so confused about life in general. People i thought i knew and could trust turned out to be real assholes. I dont know ne thing any more. I feel like i cant trust any one to tell me the truth. Like everyone has to sugar coat things to make me feel better, or to protect me. I Dont wnt to be proteted. I DONT WANT TO BE LIED TO.
Right now there are 2 people i cna think of on the top of my head in PL that i cant trust and go to all the time no matter what. I cant wait to get away from everyone else ... I can honestly say that i hate pretty much everyone else right now. And im sorry for those 2 people that i love and trust but i cant wait to get out of here ... and you will be the only ones that i miss. You know who you are. and actually he is graduating and she doesnt even live in PL most of the time ... so i wont be commin back to PL for a long time after i leave for kean.
there is so much more that i want to say now ... but i cant actually rant about any of it because it cant be shared with the public which angers me as well .. because i jsut want to scream out on the top of my lungs that i see straight through your act and i know everything .. but i will stay silenced for now .. but not for this persons own good ... but for the good of the other ppl involved.
For a while i may not act like myself, i need time to relax and adjust