Giant Chocolate Hershey Kisses
It's been some time since I've posted. A lot has been going on and has been crazy busy. Sometimes I feel like I don't have time for my own thoughts. But...sometimes that's a good thing because otherwise I might just drown in my thoughts.
I may not be taking the job in Phoenix. Several reasons. I will probably still do my clinical there for 5-6 weeks but I don't think the job will happen. Some reasons are:
Phoenix is fuckin hot and crazy city
Too many memories
I know only people I've worked with and a handful of other people
I have so many friends in Spokane and so much going on
Too close to my parents but not close enough to my friends (love you Anne)
I don't know...I think not going to Phoenix is just because I'm trying to runaway from one thing. I know what it is. The job would be fucking amazing. I loved working there last year but...I don't know if what I'm doing is right. Or if it is...it's all for the wrong reasons. Some of them anyway. My escape. I don't think I could stand living there and knowing...just...knowing and not being able to do anything.
So if I keep staying busy...keep my mind too busy to think then everything will be ok right and I'll be able to take the job? Because if that's what I should do....then that's what I've already been doing. Busy with school, two internships, having a real social life...I think I'm back to having a wall in front of me that people can't get through. I've always been good at that...It's worked for me. People know me but...do they really? It's been around a month since I've had a real emotional breakdown...I'm sure another is on it's way. It can wait. Just keep it in...
On a different note...I got my lip pierced just over two weeks ago. My parents will be thrilled. Plus...I'm getting a tattoo next month. It's the one I've wanted for over a month. It'll cost me a little over $100. Can't wait. It'll be my first tattoo.
Anne....I can't wait to see you. It's been WAY too long. We have soooooo much to talk about. Maybe you can set my mind straight...haha...not in that way. lol.
To end...for you if you ever see it...
I've Just Seen A Face Lyrics
Artist: The Beatles
Album: Help!
I've just seen a face,
I can't forget the time or place
Where we just met.
She's just the girl for me
And want all the world to see
We've met, mmm-mmm-mmm-m'mmm-mmm.
Had it been another day
I might have looked the other way
And I'd have never been aware.
But as it is I'll dream of her
Tonight, di-di-di-di'n'di.
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
I have never known
The like of this, I've been alone
And I have missed things
And kept out of sight
But other girls were never quite
Like this, di-di-di-di'n'di.
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
Yeah!
Bup-a-lup-bup!
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
I've just seen a face,
I can't forget the time or place
Where we just met.
She's just the girl for me
And want all the world to see
We've met, mmm-mmm-mmm-di-di-di.
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
Oh, falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
I may not be taking the job in Phoenix. Several reasons. I will probably still do my clinical there for 5-6 weeks but I don't think the job will happen. Some reasons are:
Phoenix is fuckin hot and crazy city
Too many memories
I know only people I've worked with and a handful of other people
I have so many friends in Spokane and so much going on
Too close to my parents but not close enough to my friends (love you Anne)
I don't know...I think not going to Phoenix is just because I'm trying to runaway from one thing. I know what it is. The job would be fucking amazing. I loved working there last year but...I don't know if what I'm doing is right. Or if it is...it's all for the wrong reasons. Some of them anyway. My escape. I don't think I could stand living there and knowing...just...knowing and not being able to do anything.
So if I keep staying busy...keep my mind too busy to think then everything will be ok right and I'll be able to take the job? Because if that's what I should do....then that's what I've already been doing. Busy with school, two internships, having a real social life...I think I'm back to having a wall in front of me that people can't get through. I've always been good at that...It's worked for me. People know me but...do they really? It's been around a month since I've had a real emotional breakdown...I'm sure another is on it's way. It can wait. Just keep it in...
On a different note...I got my lip pierced just over two weeks ago. My parents will be thrilled. Plus...I'm getting a tattoo next month. It's the one I've wanted for over a month. It'll cost me a little over $100. Can't wait. It'll be my first tattoo.
Anne....I can't wait to see you. It's been WAY too long. We have soooooo much to talk about. Maybe you can set my mind straight...haha...not in that way. lol.
To end...for you if you ever see it...
I've Just Seen A Face Lyrics
Artist: The Beatles
Album: Help!
I've just seen a face,
I can't forget the time or place
Where we just met.
She's just the girl for me
And want all the world to see
We've met, mmm-mmm-mmm-m'mmm-mmm.
Had it been another day
I might have looked the other way
And I'd have never been aware.
But as it is I'll dream of her
Tonight, di-di-di-di'n'di.
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
I have never known
The like of this, I've been alone
And I have missed things
And kept out of sight
But other girls were never quite
Like this, di-di-di-di'n'di.
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
Yeah!
Bup-a-lup-bup!
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
I've just seen a face,
I can't forget the time or place
Where we just met.
She's just the girl for me
And want all the world to see
We've met, mmm-mmm-mmm-di-di-di.
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
Falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.
Oh, falling, yes I am falling,
And she keeps calling
Me back again.