california.
I wish I had a regular influx of money. Not just a paycheck, but money beyond money. Not millions of dollars or anything like that. But money that could get me that spinning wheel I want. Money that could buy the new roof for the house and a new air conditioning unit to replace our 25 year old one. Money could get my Dad that truck with 4-wheel drive so when he goes up to the mountains with my mom, he doesn't get stuck and almost fall off of steep inclines. Money could get me a car that is under a decade old, unlike my own which is over two. Money would pay my medical insurance every month, and not take sometimes half of my meger paycheck.
California is not a happy place right now. You would be hard pressed to find anyone that was all in out truly happy with their situations that they're currently in. It makes me flash to the great depression, thinking how much worse my grandparents had it. They were the okies that came out, picking cotton and peaches across the states till they got here. If that's how bad it got, really, how much worse is it going to get till we get there? California is going to shit in a handbag right now. They scream for teachers, and yet they're laying them off left and right. Not just 1st and 2nd year teachers, but sometimes even 3rd and 4th. They're bribing the older teachers with good retirement plans so they can make room.
What the hell are we doing?? What are we showing to the rest of the states? What do they think of us? It's bad enough how they think about us with Prop 8...but really, does anyone understand California like we do? I wish people wouldn't give us a hard time about what we do--we're having enough problems as it is.
The most recent event to happen here in Bakersfield was so disgusting it just hurts me to write about it. But it's been boggling me ever since I heard about it. What man.....what person could do that to their own child? Please, tell me. I'd really like to know.