Dolce far niente
My dad? RED. If you have watched the movie, you'll know it stands for Retiree Extremely Dangerous. However in MY case (my father), it stands for Retiree Extremely Dulan. At times, I feel.
Seeing how Dad rot his life away isn't really a bad thing. Sometimes.. I figure it's about time. I'm coming to accept the fact.. I mean, I wouldn't want him to work and stress himself out at the age of 60. What if he dies of heart attack or what not. He has 2 arteries blocked by the way, and he still continues smoking.
I always tell him, "What if smoking eventually kills you?"
His reply would always be the same, something along this line... "Aiya isn't it good? I'm already six feet underground."
Siao. He wants to die. Having said so much, I must, must say touch wood!!!! I would rather see him and Mum, both of them, go peacefully. Yup, that's what I hope and pray for them.
I still want to see Dad polishing his magical crystals with an electronic toothbrush and admiring his museum every single day. I still want to witness Mum watering her plants and looking at them to relieve stress, and thinking of her job even when she's so drained and worn out: dreaming in her sleep and scolding the children as though they were her own kids. I still want to hear him joke with me like an overgrown child and her nagging at me... And not forgetting how Dad always tricks Mum by telling her "Irene, you're late for work", and Mum will jerk up from bed immediately, rush to the toilet and when she comes out.. Dad tells her the truth and she'll be like !@#$%^&* AHAHA. She's always too tired to even realize Dad's actually pulling her legs because it'll either be one of the days of the weekend. HAHAHA.
Today I woke up to daylight and I never felt so good before. It's a blessing to be awake and the first people you see in the morning are your parents. That they are still alive and kicking. My mum even chided me for talking so loudly, and I quote her, "Can you lower down your voice? Don't talk like an ah lian like that." And my dad? "Wow why are you so up early?? Let me look at the sky. I think I see pigs flying." HAHAHAHA.
I love my parents. My dad's a museum curator and my mum's a gardener. Not literally, of course.
It was too good. I can hardly wait for my wedding day. I'm still wondering if they would still be around. God??
Apart from the blessing, I was also fearful when I woke up this morning. I had a bad dream, or should I say bad dreams. Two in two days.
I sat down on my desk, eyes glued to my notes, after having a hearty breakfast of two sunny sides up. It didn't take long for my mind to run wild and start imagining things again. Yeah, I got myself thinking about the bad dreams I had.
At 1a.m in the morning before I went to sleep, I told myself I was gonna dream longer because I didn't want to be back on reality so soon. But I was wrong, because I never ruled out the possibility that my dreams could have been bad ones.
My mind kept drifting away from economics, so I thought I should relax my mind by watching a movie. I picked Eat Pray Love since it was the first on the stack. I've heard how good the book was, but I never got to read it. After the examinations, it's time to hit the library and read this book.
After watching Eat Pray Love, I've never been more certain that it's my dream to travel around the world. It'll be such an amazing experience, and YOG made me further confirm it. I wanna be fluent in many languages, so there wouldn't be language disability when I'm gonna realize my dream. HAHA but then again, will I be able to realize my dream?
A dream's still a dream. A Piscean always dreams. Dreams in her sleep, and daydreams.
Do you know what's Dolce far niente? It means the sweetness of doing nothing. I learnt it from Eat Pray Love.
It's a kind of beauty in life to me. To be able to put down everything you have, and just do absolutely nothing.
Yup, just sitting down and staring at the sky, daydreaming.
Dolce far niente.