Be strong
Decisions... I honestly do not know if it is for the better or for the worse but since I've decided I should not turn back. Jeff told me, "If it makes you happy, do it." But what if it makes you happy yet sad?
I really wish I were still a kid. I wish I were choosing between cookies & cream or strawberry ice-cream. Ice-cream in a cup or a cone. Two scoops or three. To add sprinkles or not. Rainbow sprinkles or chocolate sprinkles.
Sigh. I'm feeling.... Confused, disappointed, remorseful, sad, glad, & worried. This plethora of emotions, like waves hitting the shore, keeps inching into my heart bit by bit each time. It feels like these emotions are gonna swallow me whole.
I haven't told anyone about these thoughts but it's fine this way. I don't need anyone to tell me that everything's gonna be alright, because I've been broken too many times to know that things do not work that way. I just need some time alone to think things through, snap out of it and get over it.
Be strong Zoe, be strong.