Bloodloss coma
Well yesterday after my post, my GF got home from spending about 3 hours of the night at the neighbours' and she had this like fake smile on her face that her friend had probably helped her tape on. When she opened the letter earlier she said she didn't want to sit with me and she didn't want to talk to me cause I don't care about her daughters so she'd find someone else to talk to, she was messed up. But then all of a sudden smiling she asked me to come talk to her and reached out her hand, it was all so messed up! Besides I had donated blood earlier in the afternoon so I dozed off almost immediately, which I warned her about but still it seemed to push her buttons.
Anyway, I remember saying we're too different and not on the same tracks anymore, she was like "We'll figure this out, we'll get through this" but still the inadequate feeling was lurking there so I felt I needed to visualize it for her. After a while she was all "I'm so unhappy" again, exactly the way I've read her feelings lately... I think she feels unhappy and wonders what she's done to deserve this, while I'm feeling missunderstood and mean, my conscience killing me. Maybe it's me that's selfish?
Anyway, I remember saying we're too different and not on the same tracks anymore, she was like "We'll figure this out, we'll get through this" but still the inadequate feeling was lurking there so I felt I needed to visualize it for her. After a while she was all "I'm so unhappy" again, exactly the way I've read her feelings lately... I think she feels unhappy and wonders what she's done to deserve this, while I'm feeling missunderstood and mean, my conscience killing me. Maybe it's me that's selfish?