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from a letter i wrote to a friend...
"anyway.... everything's weird. the things i originally wanted to pray for and see changed kind of are.
i realized some of my prayers are being answered, and that i can settle down and be at peace. i let my mom getting married get me all up in arms, all confused and concerned, but nothing has changed, i'm just visiting home for the moment. i have been praying to not be tossed back and forth like a ship on the sea, and i feel like God is giving me the opportunity to be firm, to be consistant, and i can rest. i don't have to second guess, to get anxious, to wonder, stress, or strive. ... He's teaching me consistancy, and He's letting me be stable, showing me that i don't have to be rocked by changes, by things that happen. and i don't have to be anxious, to wonder, or to think i've somehow got to hear or change something. God will let me know, and for now i can rest knowing that i'm where i'm at.
and it will make my whole visit home much better. i was getting under so much stress and anxiety, and all for nothing. i'm just visiting home for my mom's wedding. goodness. what was my problem? :o)
...this morning when i heard all of that, it was like a veil was lifted off of my eyes. things seemed brighter. so weird. and this was even after i had that cup of coffee that i wasn't supposed to have :o)"
it makes more sense in my head and in my journal this morning, but... yeah.
:o)
i'm visiting the US from aug. 14th through sept. 8th. my mother is getting married to a man she met in june. he and his daughters are on their way from las vegas to conway, NC even as we speak. its so so weird. but they say they love each other, and he seems to be a man of God.
and then i'll come back to romania and finish working as a staff person at this school, so i'll be here til at least the end of november. after that, i'm not sure.
happy day to you all. :o)
"anyway.... everything's weird. the things i originally wanted to pray for and see changed kind of are.
i realized some of my prayers are being answered, and that i can settle down and be at peace. i let my mom getting married get me all up in arms, all confused and concerned, but nothing has changed, i'm just visiting home for the moment. i have been praying to not be tossed back and forth like a ship on the sea, and i feel like God is giving me the opportunity to be firm, to be consistant, and i can rest. i don't have to second guess, to get anxious, to wonder, stress, or strive. ... He's teaching me consistancy, and He's letting me be stable, showing me that i don't have to be rocked by changes, by things that happen. and i don't have to be anxious, to wonder, or to think i've somehow got to hear or change something. God will let me know, and for now i can rest knowing that i'm where i'm at.
and it will make my whole visit home much better. i was getting under so much stress and anxiety, and all for nothing. i'm just visiting home for my mom's wedding. goodness. what was my problem? :o)
...this morning when i heard all of that, it was like a veil was lifted off of my eyes. things seemed brighter. so weird. and this was even after i had that cup of coffee that i wasn't supposed to have :o)"
it makes more sense in my head and in my journal this morning, but... yeah.
:o)
i'm visiting the US from aug. 14th through sept. 8th. my mother is getting married to a man she met in june. he and his daughters are on their way from las vegas to conway, NC even as we speak. its so so weird. but they say they love each other, and he seems to be a man of God.
and then i'll come back to romania and finish working as a staff person at this school, so i'll be here til at least the end of november. after that, i'm not sure.
happy day to you all. :o)