New year, new beginning
This is my 10th year of doing this survey. It is probably my favorite thing about New Years. I'm sorry it took me so long to get to it; no internet and whatnot. Which is why I have not been on in over a year. But we're about to talk about that:
1__What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?
Gone to a live professional baseball game.
2__Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more next year?
I did not, and I will make some new ones this year. First was to not spend frivolously, which I bombed on Jan. 2nd. Second was to stop lying, which has a lot of slippery slopes because when I say to people "Hi how are you?" it's just to be nice; I really don't give a damn. Is that counting as a lie? Anyway, and 3rd, to do one nice thing for myself everyday. So far so good.
3__Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I recall.
4__Did anyone close to you die?
No.... I actually did not attend any funerals this year. Once again, I've been very fortunate.
4_b Did anyone close to you get engaged/married?
Two different friends became engaged, and they both will be married this year.
5__What countries did you visit?
Just the US... once again, nothing exciting.
6__What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
Sanity. And a professional portfolio. I'm more likely to get one of those over the other.
7__ What date from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Wednesday, May 22nd, the day I broke up with Mike.
Yep. You read that right.
Then there's December 6th, a Friday, of which the night before I left Mark to go back to Mike. Mark, in his drunken stupor and rage, decides to take a cab across town and shows up at the apartment kicking on the door. It was one of the scariest moments of my life. I'm in therapy now because of this.
Yep, I sure know how to pick them, don't I?
8__What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Hell if I know; if anything, 2013 was a year of fuck-ups more than anything else. I guess I could say that finding a place to live quickly after getting kicked out TWICE is a victory (granted that was not my or Mark's fault; but by the time we got to our third location I was so unsettled that it killed our relationship).
9__What was your biggest failure?
Letting Mark take advantage of me.
10__Did you suffer illness or injury?
A broken heart. Over and over again. Oh, and I did sprain my ankle in July, stumbling down a class 4 road in the dark while drunk.
11__What was the best thing you bought?
For myself? Nothing spectacular.
12__Whose behavior merited celebration?
Certainly not mine.
13__Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My own.
14__Where did most of your money go?
On my usual bills. And Mark.
15__What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Starting a relationship with Mark, because of all the promises he made and of what I believed our life could be. I don't want to say he lied about anything, but I can say the grass was not as green as it looked on his side of the fence, and I learned that too little too late.
16__What song will always remind you of 2013?
"Silenced By The Night" - Keane
17__Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
Sadder, easily. I'm depressed, confused, and frustrated.
Thinner or fatter?
Thinner, by a lot. I've lost almost 25 pounds since last year. Most of that was due to the stress Mark caused me; there was one instance where I dropped 6 pounds in a week and it really freaked me out.
18__What do you wish you'd done more of?
Standing up for myself, and making more time for Mike.
19__What do you wish you'd done less of?
Drinking, and letting people get to my head.
20__How did you spend Christmas?
With family, at my parent's new home.
22__Did you fall in love in 2013?
Yes... in love, and out of love, and back in love although with someone else, and then back out of love, and now my heart has so many cuts and bruises I don't know what to think. All I can do right now is try to guard myself from more emotional trauma. I don't like being so cold to people; it's not who I want to be but right now it's who I have to be.
23__How many one-night stands?
Zip. At least I have that going for me.
24__What was your favorite TV program?
Seeing as how I didn't have access to cable for more than half the year, I'm going to write down Family Guy, because Mark has most of the collection and it's pretty much all we would fucking watch.
25__Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hate is a strong word, and the one person I can even start to say that about I didn't even know this time last year, so...
26__What was the best book you read?
Still in love with my baking textbook.
27__What was your greatest musical discovery?
Definitely not Lorde. I really don't get the obsession with that girl.
28__What was your favorite film of this year?
...did I even see anything in the theaters? Oh yeah, Iron Man 3, which I suppose wins by default because it was the only one I saw. It was my first "date" with Mark, even though I ended up paying, which I suppose should've been my first red flag.
29__What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 27, I worked, it was a Thursday, but the day went well. Mark cooked me a steak dinner and failed miserably; I had to finish cooking it when I got home from work but it's the thought that counts. We had a lovely time and went right back to fighting the next day.
30__What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Closure.
31__How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
Whatever was clean, because I didn't have access to a washer/dryer for most of the year either.
32__What kept you sane?
Working, a lot, of all things.
33__Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
The same ones I always have.
34__What political issue stirred you the most?
Obamacare. It's here, and it's fucking shit up.
35__Who did you miss?
Mike. Well, I miss being happy with Mike. I still physically saw him.
36__Who was the best new person you met?
Mark, oddly enough, who is also the worst new person I met.
37__Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013:
DON'T. DATE. A. COWORKER. EVER.
38__Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"We were silenced by the night, but you and I we're gonna rise again"- Silenced by the Night, Keane
"I know we're only halfway there but you take me all the way"- Love Somebody, Maroon5
"Nobody wins when everyone's losing"- Not Meant To Be, Theory of a Deadman
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So I don't know when I'm actually going to post again. Right now I'm in the process of getting my own apartment so I guess maybe in a month or so when I have the internet set up I can fill everyone in on what's been going on since April. And if that doesn't pan out... see you next year.
1__What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?
Gone to a live professional baseball game.
2__Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more next year?
I did not, and I will make some new ones this year. First was to not spend frivolously, which I bombed on Jan. 2nd. Second was to stop lying, which has a lot of slippery slopes because when I say to people "Hi how are you?" it's just to be nice; I really don't give a damn. Is that counting as a lie? Anyway, and 3rd, to do one nice thing for myself everyday. So far so good.
3__Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I recall.
4__Did anyone close to you die?
No.... I actually did not attend any funerals this year. Once again, I've been very fortunate.
4_b Did anyone close to you get engaged/married?
Two different friends became engaged, and they both will be married this year.
5__What countries did you visit?
Just the US... once again, nothing exciting.
6__What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
Sanity. And a professional portfolio. I'm more likely to get one of those over the other.
7__ What date from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Wednesday, May 22nd, the day I broke up with Mike.
Yep. You read that right.
Then there's December 6th, a Friday, of which the night before I left Mark to go back to Mike. Mark, in his drunken stupor and rage, decides to take a cab across town and shows up at the apartment kicking on the door. It was one of the scariest moments of my life. I'm in therapy now because of this.
Yep, I sure know how to pick them, don't I?
8__What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Hell if I know; if anything, 2013 was a year of fuck-ups more than anything else. I guess I could say that finding a place to live quickly after getting kicked out TWICE is a victory (granted that was not my or Mark's fault; but by the time we got to our third location I was so unsettled that it killed our relationship).
9__What was your biggest failure?
Letting Mark take advantage of me.
10__Did you suffer illness or injury?
A broken heart. Over and over again. Oh, and I did sprain my ankle in July, stumbling down a class 4 road in the dark while drunk.
11__What was the best thing you bought?
For myself? Nothing spectacular.
12__Whose behavior merited celebration?
Certainly not mine.
13__Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My own.
14__Where did most of your money go?
On my usual bills. And Mark.
15__What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Starting a relationship with Mark, because of all the promises he made and of what I believed our life could be. I don't want to say he lied about anything, but I can say the grass was not as green as it looked on his side of the fence, and I learned that too little too late.
16__What song will always remind you of 2013?
"Silenced By The Night" - Keane
17__Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
Sadder, easily. I'm depressed, confused, and frustrated.
Thinner or fatter?
Thinner, by a lot. I've lost almost 25 pounds since last year. Most of that was due to the stress Mark caused me; there was one instance where I dropped 6 pounds in a week and it really freaked me out.
18__What do you wish you'd done more of?
Standing up for myself, and making more time for Mike.
19__What do you wish you'd done less of?
Drinking, and letting people get to my head.
20__How did you spend Christmas?
With family, at my parent's new home.
22__Did you fall in love in 2013?
Yes... in love, and out of love, and back in love although with someone else, and then back out of love, and now my heart has so many cuts and bruises I don't know what to think. All I can do right now is try to guard myself from more emotional trauma. I don't like being so cold to people; it's not who I want to be but right now it's who I have to be.
23__How many one-night stands?
Zip. At least I have that going for me.
24__What was your favorite TV program?
Seeing as how I didn't have access to cable for more than half the year, I'm going to write down Family Guy, because Mark has most of the collection and it's pretty much all we would fucking watch.
25__Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hate is a strong word, and the one person I can even start to say that about I didn't even know this time last year, so...
26__What was the best book you read?
Still in love with my baking textbook.
27__What was your greatest musical discovery?
Definitely not Lorde. I really don't get the obsession with that girl.
28__What was your favorite film of this year?
...did I even see anything in the theaters? Oh yeah, Iron Man 3, which I suppose wins by default because it was the only one I saw. It was my first "date" with Mark, even though I ended up paying, which I suppose should've been my first red flag.
29__What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 27, I worked, it was a Thursday, but the day went well. Mark cooked me a steak dinner and failed miserably; I had to finish cooking it when I got home from work but it's the thought that counts. We had a lovely time and went right back to fighting the next day.
30__What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Closure.
31__How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
Whatever was clean, because I didn't have access to a washer/dryer for most of the year either.
32__What kept you sane?
Working, a lot, of all things.
33__Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
The same ones I always have.
34__What political issue stirred you the most?
Obamacare. It's here, and it's fucking shit up.
35__Who did you miss?
Mike. Well, I miss being happy with Mike. I still physically saw him.
36__Who was the best new person you met?
Mark, oddly enough, who is also the worst new person I met.
37__Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013:
DON'T. DATE. A. COWORKER. EVER.
38__Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"We were silenced by the night, but you and I we're gonna rise again"- Silenced by the Night, Keane
"I know we're only halfway there but you take me all the way"- Love Somebody, Maroon5
"Nobody wins when everyone's losing"- Not Meant To Be, Theory of a Deadman
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So I don't know when I'm actually going to post again. Right now I'm in the process of getting my own apartment so I guess maybe in a month or so when I have the internet set up I can fill everyone in on what's been going on since April. And if that doesn't pan out... see you next year.