Keeping my options open
Over the course of my life, and certainly in the part several years, I would find myself to be in the fortunate positions to have choices, whether it was where to live, where to work, or even which type of coffee to drink. I would deliberately hang in where my life was in order to hold onto these options, because I knew eventually I would have to make a choice.
I chose to come to Vermont. I chose to make my part-time job a fulltime one. I chose not to move back to Connecticut just yet. And in the process, have met some very special people; one especially who is opening up their heart to me.
There is someone new in my life. I'm not at liberty to talk about him yet. Discovering his affections for me was the sweetest surprise; we've known each other for a while and I've always sorta liked him but never in a million years did I imagine being with him. He knows about the Bryon situation and will wait for me as long as I need. In the meantime I have been able to accomplish my goal of finding a place to live, and I'll be moving out next week, and I will be free to be with him.
It all happened so fast, it really did. The last thing I really wanted was to leave one long-term commitment for another, but it feels good, and it feels right, and as I look back upon the past month, I'm still in a little awe at myself at just how quickly this relationship progressed. I know to the rest of the world it's crazy, but that's okay. I'm okay if someone thinks I'm nuts. I'm HAPPY. I never thought I could feel like this again.
There is still guilt that lingers, though. I am not so selfish that I've forgotten about who and what I'm leaving behind. However, it's long overdue that I move on. I need to move on while there's still some peace between us.
Bryon, if you ever see this, I'm so sorry I had to break your heart.
I really want to go out
I really want to go outside and stop to see your day
You really want to hole up
You really want to stay inside and sleep the light away
I really want to go out
I really want to go outside and make it light all day
You really want to hole up
You really want to stay inside and not care where you lay
Well I know what's good
Exactly cause I have been there before
Yeah I know what's good
Exactly those things night cannot behold
I really want to go out
I really want to go outside and stop to see your day
You really want to hole up
You really want to stay inside and sleep the light away
I think it's good to go out
cause if you don't you'll never make a memory that will stay
I think that you should wake up
I think I want to live my life and you're just in my way
I chose to come to Vermont. I chose to make my part-time job a fulltime one. I chose not to move back to Connecticut just yet. And in the process, have met some very special people; one especially who is opening up their heart to me.
There is someone new in my life. I'm not at liberty to talk about him yet. Discovering his affections for me was the sweetest surprise; we've known each other for a while and I've always sorta liked him but never in a million years did I imagine being with him. He knows about the Bryon situation and will wait for me as long as I need. In the meantime I have been able to accomplish my goal of finding a place to live, and I'll be moving out next week, and I will be free to be with him.
It all happened so fast, it really did. The last thing I really wanted was to leave one long-term commitment for another, but it feels good, and it feels right, and as I look back upon the past month, I'm still in a little awe at myself at just how quickly this relationship progressed. I know to the rest of the world it's crazy, but that's okay. I'm okay if someone thinks I'm nuts. I'm HAPPY. I never thought I could feel like this again.
There is still guilt that lingers, though. I am not so selfish that I've forgotten about who and what I'm leaving behind. However, it's long overdue that I move on. I need to move on while there's still some peace between us.
Bryon, if you ever see this, I'm so sorry I had to break your heart.
I really want to go out
I really want to go outside and stop to see your day
You really want to hole up
You really want to stay inside and sleep the light away
I really want to go out
I really want to go outside and make it light all day
You really want to hole up
You really want to stay inside and not care where you lay
Well I know what's good
Exactly cause I have been there before
Yeah I know what's good
Exactly those things night cannot behold
I really want to go out
I really want to go outside and stop to see your day
You really want to hole up
You really want to stay inside and sleep the light away
I think it's good to go out
cause if you don't you'll never make a memory that will stay
I think that you should wake up
I think I want to live my life and you're just in my way