They Say, "You're so emo.." [shrug] "so?"
I feel like youre getting closer everyday. Its not a bad thing but its scaring me. Ive never had someone get so close and yet mean every little drop of every word they say to me. I feel like anytime soon Im going to start pushing you away...I dont want that to happen and Im going to be doing everything not to let it to. I care a lot about you but the fact that Im getting attached and finally having someone who has the same feelings as me is scaring me..Im not used to this kind of treatment..Ive never had someone like you..I think about it a lot and when I do, I feel scared, I feel like I should be closing up anytime soon, I feel like anytime soon you'll be getting rid of me just like everybody has..I feel like anyday now you're going to say those words, "Im over you. Good-bye.."..I dont know...I think and think..and I get so confused bc Im not sure whether you're actually there or whether you're just another, "you're too good to be true." I hate this..I hate having to feel like this..I hate having to put you in this position..Im sorry..I dont want to lose you. I dont want to lose this opportunity that I have been given..I am ever so thankful to have met you, dont get me wrong..I like you alot..just know that and never forget that…
I want to get out of this place..I started looking into military academies. For some reason, Im up for it. I’d be up for the challenge..heh..since I don’t want to do the army..might as well do an academy, eh? [shrugs] who knows..I might just end up putting up with my parents still.. But the moment or chance I get, Im outta here…
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Ok..since when do my parents care about what my brother eats now? Right after they told them that he was overweight and that he needed to lose weight, they begin to panic...but you know, they could have prevented that by lessening the food crap that we eat everyday..I mean, come on. I even knew that it was too much food...why do they think I cut back on the meals I eat at home? Pft..my parents are so lame..omg..someone fucking shoot me.
the metallic glare of the razor catches my eye..
And no, I dont want to talk about it. Ok, thanx.