Really, I guess it's that I was moving on, and happy about it, but then I can't b/c what happened at RIT haunts me. If I think about it hard enough, things from before 8th grade have effected my life up to now. I didn't get into my 1st choice college where I would have been a dead average entering freshman except I never took honours or AP courses. It was determined before 8th grade for us if we were going to be in advanced classes or not(which really meant just more work, but I digress). It never mattered how often teachers said, "oh, you should have been in the other class" nothing ever changed. So, if I really want to be deterministic, this problem was all caused by me being bored in middle school, which resulted in me not doing homework, which caused me to not be placed in the advanced classes, which contributed to me not being accepted into the college of my choice, led me to going to RIT, someplace not good for me, where I didn't do wonderfully, which leads me to my current situation.
But, anything worth having is worth fighting for, so I keep working at it, but there's not much you can do about your past now.
What I worry about is the cycle repeating. I don't want to end up at a school that is not good for me just b/c they actually accept me, then end up not doing as well, then not get into a graduate school that I want as a result of my performance there.
If I think about it hard enough, things from before 8th grade have effected my life up to now. I didn't get into my 1st choice college where I would have been a dead average entering freshman except I never took honours or AP courses. It was determined before 8th grade for us if we were going to be in advanced classes or not(which really meant just more work, but I digress). It never mattered how often teachers said, "oh, you should have been in the other class" nothing ever changed. So, if I really want to be deterministic, this problem was all caused by me being bored in middle school, which resulted in me not doing homework, which caused me to not be placed in the advanced classes, which contributed to me not being accepted into the college of my choice, led me to going to RIT, someplace not good for me, where I didn't do wonderfully, which leads me to my current situation.
But, anything worth having is worth fighting for, so I keep working at it, but there's not much you can do about your past now.
What I worry about is the cycle repeating. I don't want to end up at a school that is not good for me just b/c they actually accept me, then end up not doing as well, then not get into a graduate school that I want as a result of my performance there.
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