Memories.
You never really realize how sad you are until you talk with old friends.
He says things are complicated, and you say the same. Going over what happened after he moved, for him and for me. Not in depth, but enough to stir up emotions. Where we grew up wasn't the best place, and when we think back, we want to laugh at the things that seemed so important that really weren't. But, when we do, we feel sad. Thinking back over the last 5 years, over what we did that was both so stupid and revolting, yet what's done is done.
Life is full of regrets, but you never realize you'll regret them until it's too late. I regret not trying to be myself so I could "fit in", my friends were right in front of my eyes. I regret taking so long to learn to smile. I regret not leaving Gord sooner, I haven't been the same since. I regret not being closer with my father and grandparents when I was a child. I regret not being there more than I could have for my friends. I regret ever feeling jealous, feeling hated, feeling shy. That I didn't make such stupid decisions and mistakes. That I wasn't more responsible. That I couldn't be more honest. That I...
*sigh*
Being nostalgic really hurts sometimes.
He says things are complicated, and you say the same. Going over what happened after he moved, for him and for me. Not in depth, but enough to stir up emotions. Where we grew up wasn't the best place, and when we think back, we want to laugh at the things that seemed so important that really weren't. But, when we do, we feel sad. Thinking back over the last 5 years, over what we did that was both so stupid and revolting, yet what's done is done.
Life is full of regrets, but you never realize you'll regret them until it's too late. I regret not trying to be myself so I could "fit in", my friends were right in front of my eyes. I regret taking so long to learn to smile. I regret not leaving Gord sooner, I haven't been the same since. I regret not being closer with my father and grandparents when I was a child. I regret not being there more than I could have for my friends. I regret ever feeling jealous, feeling hated, feeling shy. That I didn't make such stupid decisions and mistakes. That I wasn't more responsible. That I couldn't be more honest. That I...
*sigh*
Being nostalgic really hurts sometimes.