Forget you.
I started out with 5 beers at the pool. Then some friends came over and decided to come down from the apartment to the pool so I'd convinced them to bring the other 7 beers down to share with the cool guy I'd met. He only had a couple to drink, and the rest were killed by me of course. When my last friend left I was suddenly left to deal with myself. I was lonely, searching for some kind of fulfillment as I usually do in my lonesome-drunken...... stuper?
I became so nostalgic, almost to the point of crying my eyes out, but that didn't happen. Instead I got onto f'n myspace (which made things worse) and then got on AIM where Mateo started chatting with me... and even when I try and joke with him he has to say something completely ass-holish to me and all the built in resentment arises. I asked if he was hungry and he starts saying that I am not allowed at his place when I'm drunk, or how he has defined a new rule that we can't be drunk together. Who said anything about that? So I stated that I wanted to kick him, he said he had locked the door, and then I said, "I'm not fuckin' coming over there!" and he replied, "Good."
He is just a jerk!!! I still resent him. He finds every way to isolate me...... I constantly feel rejected by him because for some unknown reason he has to discuss his current relationships with me, where he seems to actually give his "women" the time of day. He never fails to mention how he never attracts "normal" women - isolating me once again. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!
The odd part is that I saw him only a few hours before to drop one of his CDs off and to collect two others of his.... He makes no sense.
I became so nostalgic, almost to the point of crying my eyes out, but that didn't happen. Instead I got onto f'n myspace (which made things worse) and then got on AIM where Mateo started chatting with me... and even when I try and joke with him he has to say something completely ass-holish to me and all the built in resentment arises. I asked if he was hungry and he starts saying that I am not allowed at his place when I'm drunk, or how he has defined a new rule that we can't be drunk together. Who said anything about that? So I stated that I wanted to kick him, he said he had locked the door, and then I said, "I'm not fuckin' coming over there!" and he replied, "Good."
He is just a jerk!!! I still resent him. He finds every way to isolate me...... I constantly feel rejected by him because for some unknown reason he has to discuss his current relationships with me, where he seems to actually give his "women" the time of day. He never fails to mention how he never attracts "normal" women - isolating me once again. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!
The odd part is that I saw him only a few hours before to drop one of his CDs off and to collect two others of his.... He makes no sense.