Jan 13, 2008
Today I've had a quiet mind. It was a beautiful day but I didn't enjoy any of it. Stomach growling but no appetite. Little desire to do anything let alone move around. I stayed on the couch most of the day... hiding in my own living room under the blanket, drowning out everything with the television.. telling myself that I should be more optimistic... trying not to cry so much....
it was probably best that I didn't visit the cemetery. I would've spent a lot more time crying there compared to the amount of crying I've done here under my blanket. It is impossible to fight and hide from it, though that is exactly what I've been doing. Today has not been a day of reflection as it probably should have. Just.. quite depressing.
it was probably best that I didn't visit the cemetery. I would've spent a lot more time crying there compared to the amount of crying I've done here under my blanket. It is impossible to fight and hide from it, though that is exactly what I've been doing. Today has not been a day of reflection as it probably should have. Just.. quite depressing.