shit
im in a shitty mood... i dont know why... probably cuz vacation is almost over and i fuckin didnt do anything. and who's fault is that? probably mine. but i cant do shit about it now. but i can still be pissed at myself even though it wont get me anywhere.
then my mother is making me apply to more colleges that i dont wanna cuz she thinks it would be a "good oppurtunity" for me or some shit like that. so she's making me do all this other research and work with her that i dont wanna do. i dont even like to be near her cuz she creeps me out and pisses me off. she's not good for my mental health.
i wanna see Jeff again... i saw him last night but not for long and i probably cant see him again since tuesday and thats too long.
then everything else pisses me off and depresses me and i dont know whats wrong with me. i take my anti-depressants every day. they should fuckin work. i dont know. i just had to vent, but i dont feel any better... i feel worse if anything... im gonna go chain smoke...
then my mother is making me apply to more colleges that i dont wanna cuz she thinks it would be a "good oppurtunity" for me or some shit like that. so she's making me do all this other research and work with her that i dont wanna do. i dont even like to be near her cuz she creeps me out and pisses me off. she's not good for my mental health.
i wanna see Jeff again... i saw him last night but not for long and i probably cant see him again since tuesday and thats too long.
then everything else pisses me off and depresses me and i dont know whats wrong with me. i take my anti-depressants every day. they should fuckin work. i dont know. i just had to vent, but i dont feel any better... i feel worse if anything... im gonna go chain smoke...