So so so
This semester so far has been pretty good. I feel like my workload is manageable, (though I still get behind in my readings as usual. Maybe I just hate my readings) and that things are going pretty smooth.
I am still working on this paper for my first exam. I can't believe I have started my third year of PhD and still working on my first exam. But honestly, I have only really just started being mentally clear enough to succeed in that endeavor.
The department still gets on my nerves, and I want to find an alternative part-time job rather than teaching classes. Maybe just one to get the tuition wavier, but even still it's draining.
I have come to own the fact that I cannot have my entire life filled with work- I need days to do non-work work, if that makes sense at all. I mean having a day to bake, or see friends, or organize my closet, or read a non-academic book, etc etc. Talking to some fellow grad students makes me feel like this is wrong and unproductive.
Whatever, these kids live in NYC, which is supposed to be fun and full of amazing things and all sorts of wonderful opportunities. Do these poor, overworked grad students get to enjoy even a sliver of that amazingness? Not even close. They are always at a computer screen doing something boring and/or tedious. No money for shows, no meeting of interesting persons, going to events, not even a night of beer and friends. It's so sad to me, and also part of why I can't get myself to like NYC at all. I have no way of enjoying any of the nice things NYC can offer, just the crappy transportation, sad overworked and rushed feelings, and the pollution and noise.
You've all heard me talk about that before... so I guess other updates are in order.
Uh. Oh! going with a friend to see Cibo Matto next week! I love that group, but it's a reunion tour or something so not sure if it'll be any good. They are the composers of such catchy tunes as "Know your Chicken" and "Sugar Water." They are Japanese ex-pats, which should put their weird in context. Oddly enough they are not very popular in Japan, though.
I should get back to writing for my meeting with adviser tomorrow. I really really am VERY good at avoiding writing for this paper. I do all sorts of other work for it, but not writing. It's actually not good at all. 2 months left only!
Yikes
I am still working on this paper for my first exam. I can't believe I have started my third year of PhD and still working on my first exam. But honestly, I have only really just started being mentally clear enough to succeed in that endeavor.
The department still gets on my nerves, and I want to find an alternative part-time job rather than teaching classes. Maybe just one to get the tuition wavier, but even still it's draining.
I have come to own the fact that I cannot have my entire life filled with work- I need days to do non-work work, if that makes sense at all. I mean having a day to bake, or see friends, or organize my closet, or read a non-academic book, etc etc. Talking to some fellow grad students makes me feel like this is wrong and unproductive.
Whatever, these kids live in NYC, which is supposed to be fun and full of amazing things and all sorts of wonderful opportunities. Do these poor, overworked grad students get to enjoy even a sliver of that amazingness? Not even close. They are always at a computer screen doing something boring and/or tedious. No money for shows, no meeting of interesting persons, going to events, not even a night of beer and friends. It's so sad to me, and also part of why I can't get myself to like NYC at all. I have no way of enjoying any of the nice things NYC can offer, just the crappy transportation, sad overworked and rushed feelings, and the pollution and noise.
You've all heard me talk about that before... so I guess other updates are in order.
Uh. Oh! going with a friend to see Cibo Matto next week! I love that group, but it's a reunion tour or something so not sure if it'll be any good. They are the composers of such catchy tunes as "Know your Chicken" and "Sugar Water." They are Japanese ex-pats, which should put their weird in context. Oddly enough they are not very popular in Japan, though.
I should get back to writing for my meeting with adviser tomorrow. I really really am VERY good at avoiding writing for this paper. I do all sorts of other work for it, but not writing. It's actually not good at all. 2 months left only!
Yikes