for nothing but fun

Apr 12, 2006 02:05

some new art of mine:







"Bedtime Story." Oh, good song. Even better video.

If this is me going back to detachment, then so be it. It hurts less, yes, it feels better. Whatever. This whole...thing has just been a new experience for me. Not necessarily an enjoyable one, except for those two nights when, somehow, everything was perfect. Of course, it wasn't perfectly perfect. But for those two nights I was free from burdens, from other cares, from obsessions and from caring about which way anything else went. "You look peaceful when your eyes are closed." Maybe that's why sleep is so wonderful [even though sometimes I don't give myself enough of it], 'cause that's where I really do get to peace. It's getting better, I can think about how great those nights were and say to myself, I'm so lucky I got to feel that good; I really am grateful.

Just a new experience. I'll have others. But I can't go throwing myself into more of these situations just for the sake of having them, or to lessen the sting of previous ones. No...too many other people do that. Plus, I don't think I've ever really been one to rely on others for my happiness. Another bit I've realized lately.

why'd you have to be so cute?
it's impossible to ignore you
why'd you make me laugh so much?
it's bad enough we get along so well.

say goodnight and go.

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