Oh noes!
I'm committing RPS right now. Yeah, right the fuck now! To beta or not to beta, that is the question. I almost don't want anyone to actually read it - I haven't written in so long that it probably sucks - and getting into RPF is embarrassing - I'm too damn OLD to have this fannish obsession.
And it is an obsession - I am getting absolutely nothing done. I have six dogs going through the spring shed and there are pieces of Shiba everywhere in my house. Even my Dyson Animal is going to have a tough time with all the hair. I was supposed to bathe dogs this week - one or two a day until they were all done. It's now Wednesday and how many of them have I bathed? ZERO.
How many Adam interviews and videos have I watched? I don't even know. How often am I refreshing the Adam forum on TWOP? I'm too embarrassed to say.
It's a sickness. One of the reasons I've stopped writing is because I have carpal tunnel so bad that half the time, I can't feel my hands. I have no health insurance and can't afford to have them fixed, so I'm doing home remedies and coping the best I can. Typing fucking HURTS and I can't hold a telephone to my ear for more then 15 minutes or so before my hands go numb.
But I'm working through the PAIN, baby, to commit RPS. I don't know if I'll get over the embarrassment enough to actually post though, LOL! I'm prepared to type with just the first two fingers on my left hand if that's what I have to do!
I'm actually, not so secretly (ha) loving this little obsession, can't you tell? My dogs are whining at me for attention right now though, so I'll have to take a break and get back to committing RPS later today. I want to finish the story and maybe I'll get over this obsession - maybe. But then... do I post it to one of the communities or do I just post it here? If I just post it here, no one will read it. But I'm too embarrassed to have anyone read it. Heh - maybe I'll make a sock-puppet just for my Adam fic *VBG*
And it is an obsession - I am getting absolutely nothing done. I have six dogs going through the spring shed and there are pieces of Shiba everywhere in my house. Even my Dyson Animal is going to have a tough time with all the hair. I was supposed to bathe dogs this week - one or two a day until they were all done. It's now Wednesday and how many of them have I bathed? ZERO.
How many Adam interviews and videos have I watched? I don't even know. How often am I refreshing the Adam forum on TWOP? I'm too embarrassed to say.
It's a sickness. One of the reasons I've stopped writing is because I have carpal tunnel so bad that half the time, I can't feel my hands. I have no health insurance and can't afford to have them fixed, so I'm doing home remedies and coping the best I can. Typing fucking HURTS and I can't hold a telephone to my ear for more then 15 minutes or so before my hands go numb.
But I'm working through the PAIN, baby, to commit RPS. I don't know if I'll get over the embarrassment enough to actually post though, LOL! I'm prepared to type with just the first two fingers on my left hand if that's what I have to do!
I'm actually, not so secretly (ha) loving this little obsession, can't you tell? My dogs are whining at me for attention right now though, so I'll have to take a break and get back to committing RPS later today. I want to finish the story and maybe I'll get over this obsession - maybe. But then... do I post it to one of the communities or do I just post it here? If I just post it here, no one will read it. But I'm too embarrassed to have anyone read it. Heh - maybe I'll make a sock-puppet just for my Adam fic *VBG*