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this has been the only song loaded on winamp for a number of days. it's not on repeat, but i hit play often enough that it might as well be. i don't know why i'm so attached. it just strikes me as an eminently beautiful rendition; listening to it at a healthy volume mellows me out to the point of a trance.
i attempted to put together a playlist for early mornings based on the tempo/feel/instruments of this track. it's a decent playlist, but none of the songs really sound like this one. i need more mournful, acoustic stuff.
i'm not motivated for school at all. i miss arindam; i've never felt so stranded-all-by-myself on campus as i suddenly do now. and watching him put a working life together does not help abate my quit-school-and-get-a-job urge. come on, i want a $1,000+ paycheck too. alex, a fellow grad student, has only evening classes and is looking for full time work at a local firm, probably as nothing much more than a drafter. but it's $12/15 an hour.
my classes are relatively average. one i don't have to attend, but must do independent work outside of. one is kind of interesting, but probably won't live up to its potential (i can't complain, full potential = lots of work), and the third is going to be highly annoying. it's once a week, for three deadening non-stop hours, and is crammed full of lots of work that does not equate (≠) to potential at all. i'm only in it to learn some new energy analysis software, but i wonder if i would be better off trying to teach myself. last are six credits of research that i'm coming to dread. i see myself ending up under nader, and i don't think that's going to go well. somewhere along the way, i've lost respect for him, and i have trouble functioning well under authority figures i don't respect. i think/say/do rebellious things before i even realize it, much less am able to stop myself, and generally refuse their ideas or help. not so good.
the roommate search is not stagnant, but it's a very slow trickle. i am contacted every other day or so, but after i call or email back, i usually don't hear from anyone a second time. yesterday someone named megann emailed, but she never responded to my reply. i'm not springing any new information on anyone in my replies, and i make a point of being relatively upbeat, so i don't know why i'm getting such a dismal return rate. my ads are upfront about everything, so they know all the details before they call the first time. despite that, only one of the many people who have contacted me has actually followed up and come by to see the place.
i attempted to put together a playlist for early mornings based on the tempo/feel/instruments of this track. it's a decent playlist, but none of the songs really sound like this one. i need more mournful, acoustic stuff.
i'm not motivated for school at all. i miss arindam; i've never felt so stranded-all-by-myself on campus as i suddenly do now. and watching him put a working life together does not help abate my quit-school-and-get-a-job urge. come on, i want a $1,000+ paycheck too. alex, a fellow grad student, has only evening classes and is looking for full time work at a local firm, probably as nothing much more than a drafter. but it's $12/15 an hour.
my classes are relatively average. one i don't have to attend, but must do independent work outside of. one is kind of interesting, but probably won't live up to its potential (i can't complain, full potential = lots of work), and the third is going to be highly annoying. it's once a week, for three deadening non-stop hours, and is crammed full of lots of work that does not equate (≠) to potential at all. i'm only in it to learn some new energy analysis software, but i wonder if i would be better off trying to teach myself. last are six credits of research that i'm coming to dread. i see myself ending up under nader, and i don't think that's going to go well. somewhere along the way, i've lost respect for him, and i have trouble functioning well under authority figures i don't respect. i think/say/do rebellious things before i even realize it, much less am able to stop myself, and generally refuse their ideas or help. not so good.
the roommate search is not stagnant, but it's a very slow trickle. i am contacted every other day or so, but after i call or email back, i usually don't hear from anyone a second time. yesterday someone named megann emailed, but she never responded to my reply. i'm not springing any new information on anyone in my replies, and i make a point of being relatively upbeat, so i don't know why i'm getting such a dismal return rate. my ads are upfront about everything, so they know all the details before they call the first time. despite that, only one of the many people who have contacted me has actually followed up and come by to see the place.