Get back get back u dont know me like that...
Maybe the title of the song is true. I am totally distant from myself, like I'm changing so rapidly it's weird. I'm knda thrown into a new whirlwind of things that I didn't care about until now and I'm just different. It's hard to watch those who meant so much to you sorda disappear. It's probly hard for them to watch me slip away (I hope..) but the same things just don't appeal to me anymore. And I feel totally spiritually unsatisfied/different. Like I need to be awakened again...but then again I dunno if I want to, like it's not my nature or something. I dunno I feel all confuzzled.
And we closed early tonight and that was good. My entry probly won't make sense just cuz I'm kinda sick and am dizzy, have the sore glands and whatnot. I hope I don't get my dad sick..he hasta sing a solo in church. Last time he sang a solo (couple of years ago) I got him sick and he couldn't sing. He was pretty pissed at me. And now he's gonna sing that same song and I'm sick again. ^__^ (
And tonight Alex was supposed to go to a b-ball game with Ben and Matt and he was gonna tell Matt that I liked him. So yeah...I hope that that situation is resolved sometime. (Me liking him off and on and I know that the feelings are reciprocated sometimes..nothing ever happens.) He doesn't seem like the kind of guy to go out with anybody tho. And we're totally opposite like he likes Metallica and I'm bouncin to Luda, he's a TOTAL liberal and I'm pretty Republican, he likes the Bears *rolls eyes* hehe and I like the Vikings. But yeah I'm a total pimp this week. After I got my haircut yesterday (which BTW everyone ignored and did not notice...3 inches ppl c'mon lol) I had new confidence and I actually got hit on! The total is now up to two j/k. But this guy wanted my number and he asked my friend for it and she wouldn't give it to him cuz both my friends didn't like him or some crap. Oh well I guess he's a sophomore man-whore anyways. A lot of the guys I like are man-whores and have done half of the junior class or gone-out with or whatever...I really know how to pick 'em. Or they become anorexic and scare me then go out with an ugly girl just cuz she pays attention to him and feeds his immature little hormones that have obviously taken over his scarce but existant brain cells.....no no no I'm not bitter or disappointed.
Well that's enough whining for now, the sickness has taken over my emotions and I'm all *zah!* Well I'm exhausted and will probly head to bed now...
G'Nite!
Tina
p.s. ashley thanks for the scarf it's so fuzzy and the only present i've gotten frm friends this year! I <3 you