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yeah so im gonna start using this agian. im gonna warn u its gonna mostly be to rant. but i need somewhere to rant. about delaware, about west point, about how im completely lost in life right now and i want to fast forward to when im 22. yeah.
so today i got up at the buttcrack of dawn to wait in line for dane cook tix. waited from 8:15 to 12:30 and was about 10 feet away from the box office when it sold out. i missed a class too. this makes me sooo mad. then i had a freak out and almost another panic attack. (if u wanna know about the others, u can ask me in ur spare time im not going into it.) i had to call both my mom and dan to calm me down enough to go to class. i had a decent rest of the day, and was actually able to eat something for dinner. hooray. ugh. i hope this gets better. im coming home and commuting if shit doesnt improve.
i like being here because i know my life plan if i stay here. go here for 3 years, get my undergrad, go to grad school up near west point so i can be with dan while we are engaged, then marry him after he graduates. then i have my masters and can get a job wherever they send us. (if any of this is shocking anyone you havent talked to me in a very long time and u better get on it. i miss you.. keep in touch.) if i go home and commute, first of all where do i go... AU or cp or georgetown if i can get in and maybe even mk. who knows. then i miss out on the "college experience?" or do i not want that shit. i hate the "college life" ive seen so far. everyone getting plastered every chance they get. no one likes to just hang out. fuck personalities... everyones fun when theyre drunk. i dont need that.
i dunno. i hate not knowing where my life is going.
on a better note IM COMING HOME ON THURSDAY! ILL BE AT RM ON FRI AND HC GAME ON FRI AND RMSC SAT MORNING!!! BE THERE!!! cant wait!!
so today i got up at the buttcrack of dawn to wait in line for dane cook tix. waited from 8:15 to 12:30 and was about 10 feet away from the box office when it sold out. i missed a class too. this makes me sooo mad. then i had a freak out and almost another panic attack. (if u wanna know about the others, u can ask me in ur spare time im not going into it.) i had to call both my mom and dan to calm me down enough to go to class. i had a decent rest of the day, and was actually able to eat something for dinner. hooray. ugh. i hope this gets better. im coming home and commuting if shit doesnt improve.
i like being here because i know my life plan if i stay here. go here for 3 years, get my undergrad, go to grad school up near west point so i can be with dan while we are engaged, then marry him after he graduates. then i have my masters and can get a job wherever they send us. (if any of this is shocking anyone you havent talked to me in a very long time and u better get on it. i miss you.. keep in touch.) if i go home and commute, first of all where do i go... AU or cp or georgetown if i can get in and maybe even mk. who knows. then i miss out on the "college experience?" or do i not want that shit. i hate the "college life" ive seen so far. everyone getting plastered every chance they get. no one likes to just hang out. fuck personalities... everyones fun when theyre drunk. i dont need that.
i dunno. i hate not knowing where my life is going.
on a better note IM COMING HOME ON THURSDAY! ILL BE AT RM ON FRI AND HC GAME ON FRI AND RMSC SAT MORNING!!! BE THERE!!! cant wait!!