Dilemma
So...my female friend kissed me tonight, rather unexpectedly. Which means I am going to have to make a choice. Do I remain true to myself and my nature? Or do I follow society's norms with a girl who I definitely have some feelings for?
I lean heavily zoo, but I'm not entirely zoo exclusive, so I guess it's not surprising something like this could happen...I've never ruled out the possibility of a human relationship, or marriage (way, WAY) down the road. However, one problem is that in about two months, we will both be graduating college and moving back to our respective homes, which are far away from both the university and from each other. And if we get a chance to visit each other at all, it will be for maybe two or three days. Our respective plans for the future could take us pretty much anywhere, and very likely not near each other. So if something does come of this relationship, it will most likely be a very short one.
Another concern: how she would react to the fact that I'm a zoophile. No, I have no plans to tell her anything unless we somehow end up in a really serious relationship. And she has actually made a joke or two about it. But I still feel the overwhelming odds are that it would end badly. I can't say for sure, though...of the few relationships I've had, virtually all grew out of longstanding friendships, and I was basically never the initiator.
As I am still technically a virgin, I've thought a bit about whether I'd want my first time to be with a dog or a woman. I suppose there are advantages and disadvantages to each. One thing said, though, is that I feel like doing the deed with another person would leave with me at least some kind of a connection with the human race, which might be a good thing even in spite of how much I detest most things about it.
I suppose for now, I will just see what each day brings...after all, the end of the "best days of my life" is rapidly approaching. And maybe, just maybe, I'll have one of the few chances of happiness--however brief--with a member of the same species...
I lean heavily zoo, but I'm not entirely zoo exclusive, so I guess it's not surprising something like this could happen...I've never ruled out the possibility of a human relationship, or marriage (way, WAY) down the road. However, one problem is that in about two months, we will both be graduating college and moving back to our respective homes, which are far away from both the university and from each other. And if we get a chance to visit each other at all, it will be for maybe two or three days. Our respective plans for the future could take us pretty much anywhere, and very likely not near each other. So if something does come of this relationship, it will most likely be a very short one.
Another concern: how she would react to the fact that I'm a zoophile. No, I have no plans to tell her anything unless we somehow end up in a really serious relationship. And she has actually made a joke or two about it. But I still feel the overwhelming odds are that it would end badly. I can't say for sure, though...of the few relationships I've had, virtually all grew out of longstanding friendships, and I was basically never the initiator.
As I am still technically a virgin, I've thought a bit about whether I'd want my first time to be with a dog or a woman. I suppose there are advantages and disadvantages to each. One thing said, though, is that I feel like doing the deed with another person would leave with me at least some kind of a connection with the human race, which might be a good thing even in spite of how much I detest most things about it.
I suppose for now, I will just see what each day brings...after all, the end of the "best days of my life" is rapidly approaching. And maybe, just maybe, I'll have one of the few chances of happiness--however brief--with a member of the same species...