A bit of further notes
I forgot to mention that while at Sunfest, I was in line for the communal dinner and smiling up a storm, in Oregon's case almost literally since around that time the drizzle started. I thought to myself, "If this isn't real, I'm going to kick my maker's ass when I see him again." Now in my current mood I may do that anyway, but this just added more impetus. Now I can't totally deny that the experience indeed WAS all illusion, after all it had to come through the senses, which as we all know can so easily be manipulated. But now I'm getting back on a kick of noticing peculiar "coincidences" like a blue and white striped truck driving past a TA, the front of which is decked out in, you guessed it, blue and white stripes. There was more, but that's the one that I remember completely now.
Also on the mind is today Course in Miracle lesson, in my own paraphrase "I call upon the name of Divinity, and upon my own." I know in Hebrew at least the true name of GAWD is unpronouncable. Of course it is. If it contains all potential and frequencies, then it would come across as pure white noise. From this pure white noise emerges all names, including my own, whatever MY true name turns out to be. It would still be a subset of white noise.
Also on the mind is today Course in Miracle lesson, in my own paraphrase "I call upon the name of Divinity, and upon my own." I know in Hebrew at least the true name of GAWD is unpronouncable. Of course it is. If it contains all potential and frequencies, then it would come across as pure white noise. From this pure white noise emerges all names, including my own, whatever MY true name turns out to be. It would still be a subset of white noise.