The post we all were waiting for...
I broke up with Nick.
I know I did the right thing, but if I did, why do I hurt so much?
I never felt loved unless we were alone, and he never defended my honor.
His ex-girlfriend and his daughter live at his parents' house (and HAVE been since I met him).
His parents don't like me anyway.
He gets angry at the stupidest stuff...he punches holes through walls when he's angry.
I was never his top priority.
But I know I hurt him. I love him, I can't help it, but now that I was starting to get out of this depression, I started to realize that not everything was my fault.
I'm trying to grow up, and he doesn't think he needs to.
I love him, but I don't want to be miserable and give up everything I am to TRY and make him happy, because he is NEVER happy no matter how hard I try, which in turn, makes ME unhappy.
I've given SO MUCH to this relationship, and I've gotten nothing but 64 pounds added to my body weight. >.<
Okay, I'm tired. Storytime, then bedtime.
Goodnight~!
~Sarah
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
I know I did the right thing, but if I did, why do I hurt so much?
I never felt loved unless we were alone, and he never defended my honor.
His ex-girlfriend and his daughter live at his parents' house (and HAVE been since I met him).
His parents don't like me anyway.
He gets angry at the stupidest stuff...he punches holes through walls when he's angry.
I was never his top priority.
But I know I hurt him. I love him, I can't help it, but now that I was starting to get out of this depression, I started to realize that not everything was my fault.
I'm trying to grow up, and he doesn't think he needs to.
I love him, but I don't want to be miserable and give up everything I am to TRY and make him happy, because he is NEVER happy no matter how hard I try, which in turn, makes ME unhappy.
I've given SO MUCH to this relationship, and I've gotten nothing but 64 pounds added to my body weight. >.<
Okay, I'm tired. Storytime, then bedtime.
Goodnight~!
~Sarah
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.