BLEH!
Yeah so I'm really tired, Lina left this morning, and I have to go see my counselor today, who I REALLY don't want to go see (not that she's bad or anything, I kinda like her, but the drive is almost an hour one way!)...
Then this morning, Nick was being an asshole and making me feel like shit, then every time I TOLD him he was making me feel like shit, he was like, "You're the one who's making yourself feel bad, not me." Which made me feel WORSE, and he KNOWS it. Then he was telling me that he never complains, which is bullshit because EVERYONE complains, ESPECIALLY the men who were raised here in the Chicago-land area, which means ESPECIALLY HIM!
But yeah, then later he called me back (after the damage was done and I had stopped crying long enough for my head to hurt- which it still does) and apologized. That was nice of him, but it pisses me off how almost EVERY SINGLE DAY, we fight and SOMEONE ends up apologizing to the other for something.
GARGH!!!!!! I love him, I really do, but I think he needs to grow up. I already kicked him out (which he hates me saying, btw even though it's true - but he never wanted to live here anyway, so I don't know...), and I'm seeing a counselor, trying to help myself get out of this hole the size of Bella's when Edward left her (for those who don't know the Twilight series, it's a pretty big, never ending pit of depression), but everytime I come up, everytime I THINK I'm getting better, he just brings me down again, and claims it's my fault. I don't need that shit.
I miss how he USED to be.
AND THEN my mother doesn't help. Whenever Nick's not around, she's like, "He's bad for you, you should really see other guys, well, he did this, he didn't do that, he needs to shut up, he needs to not be such a baby, he needs to pay some of our bills." And she tells EVERYONE this.
Then when he's around, she's like, "Oh Nick, you're like another son, oh you can do this, don't worry about doing that, you're welcome ANYTIME, keep your money, we don't need it!"
And that's the EXACT SAME "this" and "that" in both statements! And the money thing? She thinks that he should be helping with the bills STILL, even after he's moved out!
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
I miss Lina already. >.<
I can already see my day sucking.
~Sarah
Then this morning, Nick was being an asshole and making me feel like shit, then every time I TOLD him he was making me feel like shit, he was like, "You're the one who's making yourself feel bad, not me." Which made me feel WORSE, and he KNOWS it. Then he was telling me that he never complains, which is bullshit because EVERYONE complains, ESPECIALLY the men who were raised here in the Chicago-land area, which means ESPECIALLY HIM!
But yeah, then later he called me back (after the damage was done and I had stopped crying long enough for my head to hurt- which it still does) and apologized. That was nice of him, but it pisses me off how almost EVERY SINGLE DAY, we fight and SOMEONE ends up apologizing to the other for something.
GARGH!!!!!! I love him, I really do, but I think he needs to grow up. I already kicked him out (which he hates me saying, btw even though it's true - but he never wanted to live here anyway, so I don't know...), and I'm seeing a counselor, trying to help myself get out of this hole the size of Bella's when Edward left her (for those who don't know the Twilight series, it's a pretty big, never ending pit of depression), but everytime I come up, everytime I THINK I'm getting better, he just brings me down again, and claims it's my fault. I don't need that shit.
I miss how he USED to be.
AND THEN my mother doesn't help. Whenever Nick's not around, she's like, "He's bad for you, you should really see other guys, well, he did this, he didn't do that, he needs to shut up, he needs to not be such a baby, he needs to pay some of our bills." And she tells EVERYONE this.
Then when he's around, she's like, "Oh Nick, you're like another son, oh you can do this, don't worry about doing that, you're welcome ANYTIME, keep your money, we don't need it!"
And that's the EXACT SAME "this" and "that" in both statements! And the money thing? She thinks that he should be helping with the bills STILL, even after he's moved out!
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
I miss Lina already. >.<
I can already see my day sucking.
~Sarah