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Rei finishes her time in the simulator, and realizes that she has an extra hour or two of time that she has nothing to do with. She considers for a moment, and then -- almost before she realizes it -- she starts walking toward the hangar. She steps in, her tread so quiet as to be almost unnoticeable, eventually stopping where she can see Unit 00 being repaired. As she watches impassively, her mind wanders.
Why did I come here?
My presence here serves no purpose. There was no reason for me to come to the hangar. I hardly even thought before doing so.
Would I have acted thusly before my experiences at the EDF? Before my experiments with "fighting spirit?"
I do not know. I am...troubled.
During the fight, my mind started behaving differently. Especially at the end. I was not thinking in any sense that I have known myself to. For a moment, the yell came naturally, as though it was a part of me and always had been. As though it WAS me.
My experiments have improved my performance in battle. But they are also changing me. I am sure of it.
Is this the true meaning of fighting spirit? Is this what the others -- Nagare, Bachika, Shishioh, Kasshu, and the rest -- feel like all the time?
And am I still suitable for my true purpose?
Or will I have to be replaced?
She refocuses her attention on her Eva. The arm is nearly healed, with only some scar tissue remaining.
The Eva will be repaired soon.
Since the battle, I have not been needed, nor have I been able, to go into combat, despite the fact that until Instrumentality, combat is my purpose. The fighting continues, but the risk of my own death has been negligible. It has been...strange. And it will end soon.
And I have yet to fight an Angel at all...
Why did I come here?
My presence here serves no purpose. There was no reason for me to come to the hangar. I hardly even thought before doing so.
Would I have acted thusly before my experiences at the EDF? Before my experiments with "fighting spirit?"
I do not know. I am...troubled.
During the fight, my mind started behaving differently. Especially at the end. I was not thinking in any sense that I have known myself to. For a moment, the yell came naturally, as though it was a part of me and always had been. As though it WAS me.
My experiments have improved my performance in battle. But they are also changing me. I am sure of it.
Is this the true meaning of fighting spirit? Is this what the others -- Nagare, Bachika, Shishioh, Kasshu, and the rest -- feel like all the time?
And am I still suitable for my true purpose?
Or will I have to be replaced?
She refocuses her attention on her Eva. The arm is nearly healed, with only some scar tissue remaining.
The Eva will be repaired soon.
Since the battle, I have not been needed, nor have I been able, to go into combat, despite the fact that until Instrumentality, combat is my purpose. The fighting continues, but the risk of my own death has been negligible. It has been...strange. And it will end soon.
And I have yet to fight an Angel at all...