So, one day
I was listening to ZZ Top @ work, and thinking about everyone, and I realized that the dynamics of ...well, alot of things have changed in less than a month, and by dynamics, I don't really mean things CHANGED but they've shifted in a slightly new direction than what was once the norm from long ago, ya? For instance, I'm upstairs alot more than I used to be, which, before was still alot, but like, most of my activity takes place up there with only part of the afternoon when I wake up is spent down in the living room, mainly just to get on the interwebs and dick around for a moment, or to go out back for pull-ups on the clothesline pole, but after that, it's typically right back upstairs to mill about, thinking about things, working on various odds and ends. Some could say I'm isolating, but I'm just really enjoying getting to work on some things that have been dormant for a while. I've gotten back into Fallout, mainly thanks to the sequel coming out in ...6 days. XD It's been so long, but the new generation of kids will definately love to play through it I think, not to mention, the old fans who will be glad to see that it's retained much of it's charm without being too butt-raped by modernization, ya? I hope to be up in Havre for when Carl comes back and has his purported shindig to celebrate, but who knows these things anymore, ya?? Anyway, along with that, I did sort of fix my cd drive, ie I unplugged it from the power supply, otherwise, it seriously SLOOOOOWEEDD my computer to a one-legged crawl, damn thing, and I still need to connect it to the internet to update the crap out of everything, poor thing, still stuck in 2006 I think, X) I've been playing both my ps2 and Wii alot lately as well, mainly just to go back and forth between some games I've been meaning to beat, but have been too lazy, sort of the pox of having so much games to play, you never know where to go from where you are, ya? I have sort of a stupid story about my KKV guitar, where the high e string broke one night(go figure), and I ran to hastings, because Eckroth was closed and I figured Hastings had my Ernie Balls but all they had were like GDHs or something, a brand I haven't used since I FIRST started playing, lol But, I bought a pack anyway and got home and was restringing it, and I got all the strings on the guitar but when I was tuning them, IDK what the fuck is up with my stupid fucking tuners, but I can't even get a fucking signal on the one that was originally an improvement over my original quik-tune, so I went back to my quik-tune and it got every string tuned, EXCEPT the high e, which WOULD NOT get a tone, no matter where I tuned it, and lo and behold, I managed to overtighten the little fucker and next thing I hear was the dreaded pinging of my string snapping at the nut, OHHH I was pissed! I actually went to Eckroth a couple days afterwards to get some respectable Ernies but I can't bring myself to scrap these otherwise fresh strings, so I've been playing with 5 strings, and it's kindof disorienting, but I can't help but enjoy, at least, the sound of the new strings. I have another guitar(aka Paige's guitaroo, cause I haven't given it a name yet) but ohh it's so fucked up the anus, the pickups are fucked all to hell near the neck, and it pisses me off, cause otherwise, it's a pretty slick, low-action guitar, but I figure I'll take it into Hansen and get them to fix it, just so I can use that for some more blues riffs, always was partial to gibson replicas for blues and more classic rock riffs, but my KKV works just as well for any style. Not to mention, I've been playing around alot more, learning more songs, I even got ahold of TAPPING! :O I'm so boned up over it, I practice it at least once every session, tapping simple riffs, I really think I'll be using that in my work later on, but not to mention, I kindof was working on some of my created riffs on power tab a while ago, and I"m really looking forward to where it's headed so far, along with some new tracks while I continue dicking around with various styles. I also got a mike stand today, so, probably when I get back home from work, I'll set that up with that old keyboard amp I have so I can at least practice signing along with the playing, further myself just that much more, I still need to get a track recorder, but eh, I'll do that sometime later. That and I've been reading the Driver's Manual, mainly just refreshing so probably by the end of next monday, I'll have gone in and gotten my permit, and will probably just drive like hell, practicing, so I can just run in and get my damn license and be done with it. And I talked to Rocky Mountain a while ago about what courses they offer, and am going to call MSU at some point, but still, college is kindof another steak on my plate if you know what I mean, and I'm still concerned with pursuing my other goals, ya? But if I can start taking a course here and there, then chyeah, I won't mind that by any means. So, I guess you could say, I'm doing alot of things, accomplishing some more, not sure why, just felt like getting busy, ya? Socially, I'm still overall friendless, I've not been up to the arcade in quite some time, but for good reason, since Jason got fucking fired and all that's there is Jeff and Cole, and the new hire who I really don't like cause he's friends with that sort of simple kid that comes in and out, not that I've got anything against him, but he acts kindof....annoying sometimes, like those awkward kids in high school that talk to you just to feel like they have friends when you're asking yourself, "who the fuck are you?!", right? But, then again, I know that Cole and Jeff are getting to be pretty cool, and Jason, Cole, Jeff, and Kyle are all pretty connected to each other, so I suppose it's only a matter of time before I find myself getting a call from one of them, right? That and I've pretty much cut Paige down to a thread as far as my ties to her go, like, I talk to Nyla(her mom) more than I talk to her, which, I'm sure, bugs the crap out of her, but I can't help but not really want to talk to her after all the shit that happened between us, you know? I'm normally not that much of a d-bag when it comes to ex's but then again, don't you think it's just a LITTLE awkward when your ex breaks up with you, gets pregnant within a MONTH of your seperation, and then has the baby and wants to show you this? After she would sit and tell you how much she wants to have children with you and all that jazz? Well, I pretty much had to deal with that all week, along with the fridge fucking going out, though we DID get a new one, not a loaner, but a NEW one, and Paige just sort of shut the fuck up again so I'm gold. But, oddly, me and my old friend, Victoria have sort of rediscovered each other, and now we just sort of talk like every night about shit and she's definately getting to be a part of my day, as odd as that sounds, if only to feel like I'm giving SOMEONE respite from the usually lonely world that we live in, aye? I really feel for her and her really shitty family situation, but I love her like hell to be able to remain so cynical and darkly humorous about it, nothing gets us through the tragedies in our lives like the grin of the devil within, right? That and I've started talking to Aubrey again, thank Odin she got away from that fucking creep she was with for this long, idc how much you love someone, when you lock yourself in the bathroom to get away from them, *that's KINDOF a red flag to GTFO*, and she's a great girl but damn it all if she can't beat her own chest and stand tall for herself. Also, me and Sara have been talking on and off, as always, and judging from the sheer gratuity of her messages as of late, I think she's alot less lonely than she used to be, so as much as it's boring for me, ha, I'm glad to hear she's warm again, aye? Kristen randomly talked to me a few days ago, which was pretty cool, though she's still swooning over me, not that that's bad, but I would've thought she'd have forgotten about me already, ya? Me and Gina have pretty much gotten back into our usual routine in her school year, where I typically wake up and see I got a text from her, talking about something random, it's only a matter of time until she's calling, locked out of her house, needing company from big brother Skitz, aye? It's good to be in rapport still with her, one of the best things that's happened to me, and yeah, I said that, Gina, get over it. Not to mention, been talking with Ruggles aka Erin an amount more than usual, along with Diana and others. Though of all of the philly gang, I've sort of missed Presley as we have sort of wandered away from each other, busy with our own shit and all, one thing, among many things, I love about that girl is she's so delightfully independent, especially after so many needy girls I've known, right? As far as recent enigmas go, I've noted that this girl in starbucks has been acting overly chummy with me, and yet I've never met her, and I can dig her being a chummy person, but the fact that she gives me like a fucking BIG GULP for my Vivannos there and other, more subtle nuances, I feel like she's taking a shine to me, which is something I've not really had happen since Nicole, my 1st gf, interesting, and needless to say, if I pursue this notion, I won't have my mum to fuck it up again, aye? But, for the moment, I gotta gtfo of work and down to my sister, so you know, fuck off.