my birthday is friday

[zombiex]

my father had another heart attack and called me from the hospital today. i know this sounds aweful, but i wish he would die already. that might freak you out, but i don't have a good relatioship with my father....really not good. he thinks we're best friends now, but we're far from it. he brings me down all the time, it's not good for me. it would be easier if he would die, because then he wouldn't be here to bring me down with him. i realize everyone has a right to live their life, but i dont want his life in mine anymore. i feel bad for thinking the things i do, but i dont know where else to go with it.

i really need some hot boys to makeout for me...that would be nice

cheers
billiebillie